It's been two weeks since I left the hospital.  I still can not understand the stroke.  Today I went to the doctor and even she can not understand why I had a stroke.

The Doctor asked, Do you smoke? Yes maybe 8 cigarettes a day.  Do you have high blood pressure? No, I have low. Do you have high cholesterol? No just got tested May 24th, it was normal.  Do you eat a lot of red meat? No, I eat fish, chicken and turkey.  I also eat lots of fruits and vegetables.  She shook her head looked through the test that was taken from the E.R. to I.C.U. to Therapy, she looked at me and said I don't understand your test are normal but you suffered a stroke.

I looked at her and said well can someone give me my left leg and left arm back, because these are not mine.  With a chuckle she explained to me and my wife that it might take up to a year to get most or all of it back.  The down size is after that year what remains of the damage you will have it for the rest of your life.

OK well if that's the case can I go back to work?  Dumb founded the doctor asked: What kind of work did you do?  In reply I told her everything from construction to bar tending.  No was the answer, you will have to take time to heal.

Still sitting here confused and dazed, I am not a dumb person, my brain thinks normal, yet my thought process it mumbled along with my speech.  I walk funny and can not do the things I use to do.

I would love to go pre-stroke again and do things over.  But alas I ate right, exercise, worked hard, played hard.  If the doctors can't figure out why I took a stroke, what will happen to others like me.  I pray they have quick acting doctors like I had.

I try to write, but have to denie my wants, for they don't happen too often,I have to put my strength ahead of my wants. Pay full attention to my needs.  It is very frustrating for me, I am only 46 years old, just married 18 months, with a new home.  I am a positive person and I will get the old me back.  One good thing from the stroke, I have a good reason for not remembering alot of things.  This may any people but it's true.  My wife reminds me of important stuff like, meds, showers, sleep.  Not to good for her as my caregiver.

I am still trying to write part 2 of my article Oh My God, You Had A Stroke.  It's a little difficult but I will get it down.  

Just wanted to stay in touch.  Take care all and will be writing again.