Hello there Tiffany.
I slept from 10pm until 3:30am.
A good start. Yesterday we visited, as you read, a psychiatrist I could not stand. He gave me a pass to not go to work until Monday.
GP and social worker at T L H Center both advised me to be honest with employers. I felt fine with this and was. Both my Rabbi M (boss) and Carney (boss) at Torat and Tutor Center were completely warm and understanding. Both just want me up and running.
Tiffany, I am a really good employee and teacher, great with kids. Stupid nazi Freudian jerk just told me I was being grandiose. I have recommendation letters where it was told to me I have all the makings of a master teacher. People CONSTANTLY tell me what a good, caring teacher I am. The social worker who works with students on site at Torat does ALL THE TIME. This does not make me as being grandiose. That is my reality. I knock myself OUT to do this job well and right, to the best of my possible ability each and every minute I walk onto those front lines.
If that means making origami, or airplanes to fly with the students on a Friday, that is what that means. All of it is a learning opportunity, and an opportunity for laughs, smiles, and fun. And learning.
I have read and been in contact, given home numbers of Rafe Esquith, Anita Moultry Turner, read and not in contact with Ron Clark, and now current teacher of the year I saw and stayed for her class at teacher conference Rebecca Mielwoki, whom I probably subbed for in BUSD. I subbed there as much as humanly possible while credentialing from I believe March of 2002 til May of 2005. Then I finally got a blessed position, the impossible, a job at an elementary school. SO HARD TO OBTAIN Tiffany, because public schools were already not hiring elementary school teachers by and large, cept for second language learners and sp. eddies.
Yesterday, saw psych w/ husband. Argued lot with husband. He has a harsh tone, and...I am just more intuitive than he I strongly feel, about things of this nature. Hence, mother will go back with me into that room to read him as he, psych. is what I have for now.
We then hung out at home. No idea what we did. I got a coworker to bring spring decorations with her to my 6th grade girls.
Tiffany, four of them are being shunned for saying out loud they "like boys". I was to have those four help me decorate, had planned this days ago, the white board, then was taking them out to coffee bean, just to bond with them outside of school. Help listen to them. That is all these little tweens need. I know this.
But obviously, I had to cancel yesterday. They were so excited to come help. So, Ms. Torres helped me out. Actually, she is so cool. Came with David and I on 5 mi walk we do. I walked it SLOWLY. I have done it in 11 minute miles.
We talked and talked about nutty work, laughing and chatting like friend Sandy and husband David did with me all weekend.
So, I put a cute note in there for 4 picked on students putting them in charge of spring white board change from fall decor. Group is super creative. Hope that happens while I am out.
Psych suggested I can go back Monday, visit him after. As I said, I will be present in that room with my mother and she feels David must and should be there. So fine. Team Tami.
Today, only plan to walk 5 again (maybe do house yoga, should do Bikram...but) and see Maus at 2:00pm.
God bless. Be well.