I let Jake pull me into my bedroom, taking extra care to avoid hitting the door frame and plopped down on the bed. As Jake pulled down the covers for me, I frowned at the bed and then at my clothes. It occurred to my alcohol-induced thought that sleeping in jeans was never a good idea so I stood up and dropped my pants. Luckily, I was wearing underwear but Jake's face turned a glorious red color.
I smiled, "What's the matter, Jake? Never seen a woman without her pants on?"
"Of course," he said, "Just not you. You're usually much better guarded."
I giggled as he came around the bed and put my arms around his neck, "You want to fuck me. I see it."
He laughed, "I'm a guy. Of course, I want to fuck you. But it ain't right."
"Why?" I pouted, "You want me. I want you. Come to bed with me."
Jake shook his head, "I can't. We can't." I leaned against him. I knew I was drunk but he was hot and whether he was aware of it or not, I was having an effect on him too. At least one part of him wanted me.
So I reached up and kissed him. His lips were warm and soft as I gently caressed them with my tongue and lips. He moaned into my mouth as I pressed up against him. His hands were on my hips, halfway holding me and halfway pushing me away.
Finally he pulled away, "Nikki, no. Shit. Not like this."
He smiled lightly, "You'd totally regret it in the morning." He swept me off my feet and laid me down in the bed, pulling the comforter up over my half-naked body. I think it might have been more for his benefit than to actually keep me warm. I grabbed his arm as he turned to leave.
"Stay, please," I heard myself saying. I couldn't help myself. Drinking had stripped away all the armor I'd built around my heart over the years. I was a slave to the emotions I felt, my fear over what the vampires had done. I could deal with mages, because that's what I trained for. I could even deal with shapeshifters because for some reason I felt at home with them. But vampires? Their attacks were so intimate, so violating... They scared the shit out of me.
"I don't want to be alone," I said. I stared at him while he looked at me. I knew he was looking in my head, scanning my surface thoughts to see what I wanted. Finally, he sighed and came around the other side of the bed. The bed sunk a little as he laid down beside me, very notably on top of the covers.
I smiled gratefully and snuggled up close to him as he put an arm around me. His hand rested on my abdomen as he pulled my back against his chest. He lifted his head long enough to give me a soft kiss on the cheek, "Go to sleep, Nik."
I sighed happily and closed my eyes. Within minutes, I was gone.