I know--these things are awful, aren't they? With Tags like "self-loathing" "alcoholism" and "drug use"--what can you do, right? Well, this was a lot worse in older versions--I really pared it down quite a bit and tried to use more scientific jargon to get the physical process of weight gain embedded in the backs of your minds.
Nothing like a little mental imagery of carbs bonding and making those nasty, clumpy yellow fat cells, eh?
Enjoy--and no, I'm don't hate myself that much...most of the time.
The Molt of a Man Ablaze
This remainder means nothing-
it is cast off with every prospect
it is crammed with amber hues,
a preternatural embalming
process, involving fetters
and remorse and revulsion
and nitrates as they bond with
disgust and dismay-into formless
soft ambiguity; like a toxin,
secreted beneath the subcutaneous
stratum-out of reach of the kiln,
flammable-yet snuffed from
a flickering yesterday afternoon.
In retaliation: I confess, "I was
too late to save myself from
the burning structure." In fact,
I am the arsonist and the hero
all in one; it's been my modus
operandi-to be like straw;
like German silver and oxidation
processes; like the slowest rot-
a fiend that takes everything before
it goes for itself, slowly shedding.
© 2008 Steve Ekstrom
Causes Steven Ekstrom Supports
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