"There are other worlds than these," Stephen King has Jake say in the first Gunslinger. Or, at least, that's the phrase I hear when I think about it. I sometimes believe this to be so, that there are other worlds than these. Maybe not in a Gunslinger way, nor in a Talisman way, nor even in a Lord of the Rings way.
In what way, then? I don't know, but in this other world I don't grind my teeth, and every pen is as smooth as the one I used to originally write this down. There's a lightness, but also a sense of urgency. In this other world, there is a known magic, an accepted sense of wonder, of awe. Life is simpler, but harder for its simplicity. There's more color, more sound, more vibrancy. More of a Pull.
In this world, here, I get more of a sense of Push than Pull. I feel pushed along, usually roughly, rather than pulled gently, though perhaps inexorably. My mind is calmer when I feel Pulled, than Pushed.
I'm pushed to pay The Man, as we all are, and to do the job that helps me to pay The Man, though I'm fortunate to be both Pushed and Pulled at my job. That's my Beam here, I think. My job. The difference I'm told I've made, and continue to make. That's how I stay on the Beam here; that's my contribution to the Beam, to the Tower that supports us here. Would the Tower tremble without me doing what I do here? I like to think so. Someone recently told me he has done everything he's done because of what I did for him back in the day, maybe nine or ten years ago now. So maybe there's a Beam that connects us, me to him, and both of us to the Tower here. It's always nice to think you matter.
But there, in that mirror world, I think my writing, my creating, keeps the Beam buzzing. The Me, there, lives in a somewhat muted contentedness, alone in a wooden shack, with some of the same things there as here. I write by candlelight and it's always raining outside. I have a small fireplace in a small hearth, but as it's a small room in a small one- or two-room house, and as I'm warm with my sweater and my shawl anyway, it's all good.
Maybe one me also supports the other. A glimpse of me here to the me there, and vice-versa. I look out my office door to the Me in the commode mirror, beside the picture of the younger Me in Amistad, and I can see all this.
Causes Steven Belanger Supports
APSCA and a couple of others that I forget until the pledges come in the mail.