I was driving to meet a fellow writer for tea the other day when a song sprung into my head. The tune is borrowed from Pirates of the Caribbean, but the words flowed right from my heart:
Yo, ho, yo, ho the writer's life for me,
I have no cash, I can't pay the bills, the landlord's at the door,
So what do I do, I don't give up! I just keep writing some more,
Oh, yo, ho, yo, ho the writer's life for me!
I think this song spells out my life perfectly. I am among the millions of poor souls who lost their 'day jobs' due to the horrible economy and I've been searching for full time work for about 2 years now. No luck, hence the song. It's frightening out there and for every application or resume I submit to a potential employer, there are probably a hundred more along with mine. It's hard to compete and I keep reading about more companies that are closing down (Borders) or reducing their workforce (Cisco). I've never been without a job, but now I can't get one to save my life. And, my savings are all gone. Yet, as the song says, I keep writing. It's the only thing that keeps me sane right now. Yes, I know that writers are a little 'off' to begin with, but what little sanity I have left is being preserved by my writing. If anything, I find that my mind is more tuned into my writing than before. It could be because I don't have the distraction of a day job, but I think it's more than that. I think I'm focused now on writing to try to make a living. It's survival writing at this point. My brain isn't calmly developing story ideas, it's frantically working out details and transmitting those details to my fingers on the keyboard at a frenetic pace. When I write, I can momentarily forget about the bills, the landlord or my empty food pantry and drift away, for a while anyway, to another world. So, to repeat a line in my song, I don't give up, I just keep writing some more!
About Sofia Diana
Causes Sofia Diana Gabel Supports
SPES Children's Orphanage in Togo, Africa