It's July 1st, 2010, that much I know for sure right now, write now ..... what did I say from the get go? yes, that I would always write / blog here when I felt that pull, that tug ...... that yank that pulls you from whatever you're doing to the keyboard, to the pen, or to your artistic instrument of choice, a brush? a guitar? drum, pencil ?????
It's my Mom's birthday today, she's awesome, and like so many women a breast cancer battler and survivor -- I am humbled by the journey through that, and am vulnerable to a well of tears at a moment's notice. Because that's how it feels sometimes, it's just a ripper sometimes you know.
I've been all over the road fellow artists. In such a tizzy, in such a transition.
All at once blessed and challenged, and always, always grateful, grateful thankful grateful for every single second that I have my health, and the lovely honour of being born and raised a Canadian, with my Greek roots in place, lovely.
This week, through connections in on-line places like facebook or my own site -- I've been reminded once again of how life unfolds in layer after layer of storylines. For example, in transition I've been training for a 10 Mile Run I have no business running. I am but a mere sprint runner at a pesky 45 years old -- a "sprunner" actually. I run to music. Big time. It carries my every step, propels me, and knocks me right out too. To end up in a 90 degree bent over mess of purple face sweat and, well, sometimes next to puking -- Is to sometimes really let it rip and release, you know?
Sometimes you have to push yourself as hard as you can to let go, you know?
So, needless to say, 10 miles, um, the most I've ever done is 5 km, this is more like, errr 16 km .....
And therein lies another layer, another storyline. I've challenged myself to do this Run because I'm doing it in the spirit of gratitude, for sure, and honour. The kind of Spartan honour that I'm sure I can call upon to get this done :)
An ol' school buddy invited me to do the Run on facebook -- she's running in honour of her sister, who she lost in a plane crash 19 years to the day of the Run, July 11, 2010 -- with a special jolt of love for a brother, she lost to cancer not quite more than a year ago.
I have two amazing sisters. They rock. Been the greatest role models, both artistic, both awesome Moms. I'm so grateful to have them.
Another storyline, my sweet city of Toronto was taken over by the events of a bunch of "leaders" "gathering" for a meeting. Well, wow. It was something, and feel free to read about it on-line. From where I sat I decided to put my camera down. I decided to stand true to what I am as an artist, and if you want to break it down to it's lowest common denominator, I wanted to "stay true to the brand" -- how's that?
So, the biggest event in my city and I did not photo it -- because at the end of the day, I realized that the entire thing, ALL of it, from the second it started, to when it was happening, to the lingerings, to the after analysis of it all -- the whole thing was fear based. All of it, fear fear fear, bully in the playground, at best, like roosters chest butting with no logic, just one wanting to scare the other. Either way, Yuck.
If it's love-based, I'm interested. Anything else right now, no thanks. Keep your fear to yourself please :)
I take a pause for a little sigh and a smile.
I'm still looking for a place to live in T.O. .... :) I've been bouncing around and living out of a bag since April. Well, two bags, the clothing necessities big bag, and of course the media bag - computer, camera etc -- another storyline. Been staying with Rachel and Jasmine -- gorgeous single mom and daughter, greatest people. And just right there, more storylines.
Next week I move, to another gorgeous awesome single mom's place, and her daughter, also brilliant. What a journey. Different stories there. I'll be taking care of two adorable cats, watering the plants, that sort of stuff. I've been an east Toronto gal for 11 years now, and this is the first time I'm moving west .... very interesting. I wonder if I'll be pulled back east or sent further west ...... :)
Weaving itself through all the story-lines is the fact that I've reduced my carbon imprint in a big way. I'm so proud of that. Using one small towel, super fast showers, minimized electricity use. walking to and from work every day. It's been great.
Ok, gotta go.
Happy Birthday Mom, you rock, I love you. Happy Birthday Canada, love you too.
I am "blipping" my playlist for the 10 Mile Run Just google siapeace if you're interested -- go to the blip fm page and check out the music. Everything I "blip" I buy -- I believe in supporting artists.
All the best, love peace positive energy ....