Amends is about truth and change. The relationships of my past were places of little truth and even less change. I tried to be nice not honest; I tried to keep things going even when they needed to die. Making amends has ended most of my relationships from the past. A quick strong 10th step keeps me from starting too many new ones. Good healthy relationships require time and attention, so this necessitates a short list. Sometimes I wish for more quantity, but I realize in sobriety I cannot accept less quality.
Tie your shoes with humor.
My life runs at a Gilbert and Sullivan pace,
with about as much sense and comic relief.
You say 'keep it simple'
and my disease says 'why ruin a good play?’
The truth is this is not play at all
but a work that consumes my life from me
and doesn't thank me for my time.
Simplicity for me requires respect,
a gift I selectively give myself
a gift that I often use only as a shield during battle.
My past method of increased self-respect
is life in a war zone, this is no solution.
Release of grief, this is the onerous path I avoid taking.
Purging the wrong thinking and action of others
from my blood, my eyes, my skin,
allows me to lift my chin and square my soul.
To plumb and level living,
don self-respect as a birth right
and set a calendar fit for plausible life, a simple life.