I have recently begun to start examining all of the works I have written and composed since I first began “serious” writing in 1960. Although I had written down many thoughts and ideas previous to that year, they are not to be found or may have been tossed for any reason.

This piece was written in 1979 and gives hints to what was to come forth as Self-Revealization Acceptance. The form is in a stream of consciousness and includes personal notes and word graphics on the original pencil written work that are not shown here. The last stanza was an afterthought on the following day.

Coming to terms with the “revealization” of profound ideas often drives one to the edge of self-awareness and brings along with it tremendous moments of fear and doubt...and emotional pain that should never be taken lightly.

This is only one of many poems that I composed during the formative years of developing Self-Revealization Acceptance as my personal divine right to live in joy and freedom. It is a very personal look into the mind of a mystic. And as always, your comments are welcome.

This work was originally published in the Brooklyn College Alumni Literary Review, Vol. 3, 1982, ISSN 0732-9709.

9/24/1979

Journals of to here and back

A voyage of total reality which is

not harmful in any way shape or form

A conceptualization of being beyond God

A door to open in and out at will

But what is beyond God and why is it

conceived as beyond our understanding

Oh great mystery -- who says you exist

I say no -- no mystery -- as man

becomes more and more of God then he

is God and then what

I must have complete total dominion over

all creation and I will to do -- I have

I believe I am limited by G's

desire (as taught) to be unknown in totality

This limits G's ability to fully know G

I am reaching the edge of my G secret and

will break through -- it is inevitable as I

strive for more and attain it

I believe in instant gratification and instant

this and instant that instant karma

G has no right to keep these secrets from me

and G doesn't -- man does -- I therefore transcend

man I don't want to be led by improper

words either -- new words are used

when needed. Not a door

So if beyond G is more than knowable all is

known and demonstrable to go beyond

To go beyond G I must know all of G

Without machinery

What do you mean beyond God

Where did you get an idea like that

Yaway, not oivay, Yaway

What could possibly be beyond God

Keep your feet on the ground while working this one out

But if you go beyond God who do you pray

to what do you pray to and is it

necessary

9/25

If G is titled as infinite and unlimited

then the very nature of the wording puts a

subtle form of ending to it

© SFKaufman  modified 7/21/2011