Follow Robyn Wheeler on her journey from fits of rage as an angry child, blunders and setbacks as an adult in deep denial, to her quest for awareness and enlightenment. Robyn takes you inside her deepest thoughts and fears, as well as her chronic anger and thought of suicide. After being diagnosed with a "bad state of mind" called dysthymia, Robyn wrote Bornm Mad to help others who may be unaware that they might be suffering from a low-grade chronic depression that will make life difficult, ruin relationships , and contribute to a negative and hopeless outlook on life. Born Mad includes symptoms of dysthymia and coping strategies, aw well as the story of how Robyn came to believe in God, defeat chronic anger, and become the person she was meant to be.
robyn gives an overview of the book:
Denial is like an 11-foot brick wall standing between you and awareness. You can't see over it. You can't see around it. in order to expose the world on the other side the brick wall has to be knocked down. And only the person who constructed the brick wall can destroy it. My brick wall took over forty years to slowly and gradually erode and fall apart. Once the wall was in pieces lying on the floor, I was free to see the beautiful world on the other side—a world I’d never known existed. I understand why people don’t come out of denial. Denial is safe, familiar and comfortable, and it doesn’t require anything of you. At the exact time I realized my denial had lifted, I wished I had stayed in denial. The first glimpses of awareness and enlightenment were scary and intimidating, like a huge flesh-eating monster had been set free to consume “the old me.” I felt like a small child, lost in the wilderness, asking, “What do I do now? What direction do I go? How do I get to the other side?” Emerging from denial was mentally and emotionally painful. It was awkward and frightening, and I felt out of control. At the same time, I knew I would never be in the state of denial again—it just wasn’t possible anymore—but I wanted to go back anyway.
After several years of depression, anger and anxiety which led to thoughts of suicide, Robyn Wheeler sought out treatment and was eventually diagnosed with dysthymic disorder. Believing that others might benefit from reading her story, Robyn wrote about her journey and...