It took me a while to get to know her, but in time this knowledge caused me to love her and it helped our relationship grow. I came to love her, even though she was shy, naive, and not the most outgoing woman I would ever meet. Early in our relationship we would argue about the silliest things and when the argument was over, would laugh at how petty the subject of the conversation was, and how arguing about it was ridculous. One of the nicest women I ever knew, she caused me to see my true self by making me aware of who I was without even realizing she was doing it. In times of trouble, she was there for me and this is important in any relationship. I'd sometimes take her for granted the way most males do when it comes to the opposite sex. This didn't, however, change my feelings for her.
One of her greatest qualities was how she was with children. They gave her joy and happiness, and she returned the favor. She judged no-one, and I guess this was one of the things I admired most about her. If anyone mistreated her or did her wrong in any way, she had the ablilty to walk away, close her eyes in a quick moment of prayer, and forgive them; not a quality I can boast having for sure.
The discussions she and I would have were not easily forgotten. When I was away, she would write to me religiously. I still have her letters and read them from time to time when I am alone.
When she left me I was sad. Actually, truth be known, I was heart-broken beyond words. I felt my life had shattered and I was crushed. It took a long time just for me to get over the fact that she was gone. It's like this. When the first woman you love, leaves you, you have to deal with a feeling you have never dealt with before and that is so difficult.
Our relationship ended 19 years ago when I held her hand and said goodbye. I see her clearly in my memory and as I look into her eyes, I say to her, "I love you mom! Happy Mother's day 2012."