This is it! My first ever blog, first ever entry. BFD, right? Get over yourself, huh?
Well, what else do us writers have, anyway?
I'm in between edits now. I'm waiting for external reviews to come back before my second book goes into production at University of California Press. I know you writers out there are famililar with the drill, or some variant of the drill. I've written and rewritten and revised and re-revised and re-re-revised and still I'm at the mercy of some (arbitrary) expert who will have his or her first look at my several-years-in-the-making, labored-over book and can, more or less, give me a thumbs-up or a thumbs-down based on this fractional view. Hmm. Why should I care? Welllllll. I want people to not only like the book, but to really, really like me as well -- like Sally Fields at the Oscars. But even I can get over that. I really care because these people wield tremendous power over me and my book. They can more or less kill it and not even know they're killing it. The same subjective process goes on when a prospective agent, or agent's assistant, or an acquisitions editor, or that person's assistant, reads your work. Are they looking for ways to say, yes, come and join us and our abundance? Or are they looking for ways to say "fuhgeddaboutit" and get the f*** off my desk and out of my life?
So, in this in-between-time, when I'm trying to figure out what my next project will be, I am finding myself feeling allergic to books, my computer, my notes. It's a special form of writer's block. I need to see what those reviewers want, or expect, me to do, before I can clear my head about the next project. So now I'm noodling along with this blog and thinking vaguely about promotion. But at the same time, I am feeling the itch, to get back on this still-in-limbo manuscript -- to hammer it down, get it over with, so I can move on to something new.
Wow? That's enough for now. Cheaper than psychotherapy. Much, much cheaper. I think I'll do it again someday.
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