AbI Gal in front of the Bird of Paradise plant. Now she is a bird in Paradise.
Our house is strangely silent this morning. Sadie walks over to the window in the dining room where AbiGal our cockatiel’s cage has been for almost four years. She sniffs the floor. She runs her nose along the joint where the glass meets the floor. She makes a nose print on the window and sighs. She comes to me on the sofa and leans against me. In a few minutes we’ll walk outside…to Abi’s grave. Abi died yesterday and today our hearts are still in pieces. I’m not sure what Sadie is thinking, but I have endless questions running through my mind. Why? Why did my little sweet bird who loved living here in our almost outdoor house die? Abi had a wild Cardinal boyfriend she would chirp with on the deck where she loved being outside in her cage, Abi loved talking to my Dad on the phone and trying to teach me to whistle.
If any creature ever loved her life, it was Abi. She was a joy to have in our family. During the past four years I’ve thought of us as a four “person” family. I’ve signed cards, Patti, Sadie, and Abi. Last weekend Abi gave me the most wonderful birthday card with assistance from Rodney who loved her too, Abi was easy to love…she was a constant source of encouragement and joy I’d hear her cheerful chirps when I pulled in the driveway and she was always clinging to the side of her cage for a head rub greeting. She sat on my finger, my shoulder, and settled her small spirit into my heart. And now, though she will never ride on my shoulder or watch TV from the back of the couch…she will stay in my heart and I believe in Sadie’s heart too.
Abi loved to go out in the Jeep. As soon as she was in her travel cage, she started signing, but when I turned on the radio, she would sing much louder from the back of the Jeep where her cage had to be secured so she could see out the window. She loved to sit on top of her cage and observe our activities. Sometimes she just liked to walk on the floor and she’d go right up to Sadie’s face and stare at her. She really liked flying from the top of her cage to the third floor balcony in our house. And so the memories of Abi are endless although her time to share her life with us was not.
I’d like to know why Abi died, but I probably never will. I do know though why she lived…why she became a part of my life and of Sadie’s life and of Rodney’s life. She taught us that just because life treats you horribly, there is still something to sing about. If you get knocked down or thrown heartlessly out of a car, it’s not the end of all things good. I assume that Abi’s life before I snatched her off the roof of a parked SUV wasn’t that great or she wouldn’t have ended up there. She held no grudges. From the beginning she was loving and grateful. She adjusted quickly and despite all my misgivings, I fell in love with her in a short period of time.
My sweet Sadie and I stand by Abi’s grave. I placed her to rest in a little fenced garden bed where I’ll plant some flowers for her. It crushes me to ponder why she is in her grave and not in the house singing and waiting to go out in the sun. I know this is an answer I will never get. No more cages for Abi’s spirit though….she flies free and I’m sure when I listen to the calls of the birds in the woods that if I listen closely I bet I’ll hear Abi’s call to us…”Keep going…keep singing…Thanks for four fantastic years…We had a moment in time and it was priceless.” Sadie and I walk slowly back into our now very quiet house to grieve.
?=May 18, 2013
AbiGal Lawson, a beautiful Cockatiel was born in an unknown place on an unrecorded date. She literally flew into the lives of her family in August of 2009 in Charleston, West Virginia when a cruel person tossed her out the window of a moving vehicle. She lived the rest of her life at Treehouse in Elkview, West Virginia. She was an accomplished vocalist. She loved the outdoors, climbing the ladder in her birdcage, playing with her natural toys, flying, talking on the telephone, travelling, and watching television. She died of unknown causes suddenly May 18, 2013 surrounded by her family Patti Lawson, Sadie Lawson, and Rodney Morrison. She was laid to rest in her woodland yard where she is surrounded by the many birds whose sounds she often imitated. Rest In Peace AbiGal…you were loved…fly free.
Sadie and Abi having one of their many chats on the deck. I think Abi told Sadi where the squirrels were hiding.!
Causes Patti Lawson Supports
All causes that are kind to people and animals.
The Worthy Project
Animal Legal Defense Fund