I'm a lucky one. Dr. Geary Hobson, Dr. Jonathan Stalling, and Dr. Alan Velie were fantastic committee members and gave me tremendous feedback. I appreciated thier energy and time spent on reviewing my thesis. The defense itself went well. I stumbled and stammered on a couple of questions, but for the most part I answered the questions adequately and extensively.
I'm going to miss the University of Oklahoma. I'm back in Santa Fe, NM, and doing a lot of reflection on my education at OU. It was a great experience overall. I had to figure out how to juggle school and a family and most of the time I feel short, but I tried everyday to do well.
I don't have any regrets because I woke up everyday with the intent to better myself and better my family. There were moments I could have handled better, but overall I did well. This last semester was difficult emotionally because of all the transitions going on in my life. I developed vertigo midway through the semester and I am still dealing with this illness. Most of the time I'm lightheaded, and I have occasional dizzy spells. But even with that on my plate I was able to pull through. There were so many odd things that happened during this semester and I can only think of it as a conditioning process for what is to come.
Now that I'm in Santa Fe I'm getting back into the creative writing side of myself. I focused primarily on critical writing while at OU. Now I'm back. I am so blessed to have a passion like writing and to have a place to lay out the moments in my life. As I navigate this system, of writers and Native writers, I am excited for the friends and family support. As we know the crabs in the barrel can be rampant at times, but it is always great to have people who supprt what you are trying to accomplish as an artist. All we can do is hope those haters find some happiness in their lives so that they will stop destroying themselves. Ultimately, the hater energy serves to make artists more successful, because we are overachievers and overachievers are relentless in the pursuit of our goals. But I think that if someone were to tell the haters that they are making artists famous (I think of Sherman Alexie when I say this because he has been the target of so much hate over the years, some of which I've witnessed in the programs of sudy), but they would not be able to stop themselves. Haters don't have the desire to be successful, to put in the hardwork, they only serve to gossip and nothing else; this is why they make artists famous. We, as artists, only need to do what we do best: Create. Let the haters make us into the notable figures that we are meant to be.