I dislike horror. I say "dislike" because I try not to over-use the word "hate." Horror sneaks into my head, sticks around, plants horrible little horror eggs which then hatch and eat my subconscious from within in the form of nightmare maggots. Horror and I, as it were, do not get along.
So, when husband saw Alien on sale on Blu-Ray, he decided even though it was a horror movie that squicked us both out it was worth owning and watching. Which we did.
Tonight on my subconscious? Probably horror. Still, done well, horror is something I can really admire. I just don't imbibe much.
"Coyote Love," by Kraig Blackwelder
I've mentioned the Bending the Landscape series before, and this collection was the one that took me the longest to read. Because it's Bending the Landscape, Original Gay and Lesbian Writing: Horror. Like I said, horror and I? Not best buds.
In fact, the very first story in this anthology has stuck with me for years. Years. After we watched Alien, my husband and I took a walk and discussed horror, and I made a list of the horror that has most sunk its teeth into my brain, and I recalled this collection, and the very first story - about a man who's own self-loathing and internalized homophobia (and abusive father) has left him unable to connect with other men. When he does - in a drunken stumble against his own self-hating willpower - the end result is being trapped in a way that leaves him to decide on one particular method of escape. And oh lord did that stay with me. Gruesome. Horrifying. Exactly the kind of shivers and imagery that runs right to the core of my psyche and sets up camp.
Ack. Now I'm not sure which of Alien or "Coyote Love" is likely to visit tonight.
I hope it's not both.