Letting Go is the extraordinary story of a woman who retires with her husband to the mountains of North Carolina to build their dream retirement home. Just as she embarks on this fabulous new chapter in her life, her husband confesses, “I never wanted any of this… .” Follow her struggle to learn from and let go of the devastating feelings of betrayal, grief, anger, fear, and loneliness that engulf her after they separate and divorce. Abandoned 600 miles from everyone she knows, her dream shattered, without a home or job, she dares to ask, “Why?” The answers lay buried deep beneath her pain. Join her as her quest for Truth reveals the unusual teachers from within Nature and the spiritual realms, available only to those with the courage to seek answers. Discover how she learns to let go and embrace her destiny.
Nancy gives an overview of the book:
Chapter 1THE DREAM“I never wanted this house. I never wanted to be here. This is all your dream and I feel like I’m just along for the ride.” My heart froze as these startling words rolled from my husband, Bob’s, lips. They would change my life in ways that I could never have imagined. I felt like I’d been hit in the stomach with a bat. I was speechless, very uncharacteristic for me. I stammered, “It didn’t occur to you to say something in the last four years?” He said he was confused. I needed time to process what just happened. It was surreal. It was as though I’d just crossed over into a different dimension. Had the past three and a half years of my life been based on a lie? No, we’d made every decision together. What about his secret dream to own the top of a mountain and his happiness and excitement at the party before we moved? What the hell was going on? The next morning, I told him that I really didn’t know if I could continue to live with him. How would I ever know if we were doing what he wanted? He offered no answers, nodded, and walked away. Later, I asked him to explain what had changed, what he wanted. He didn’t have a plan. He seemed to know what he didn’t want. Finally he mentioned several things he wanted, none of which seemed to involve me. In the middle of our discussion, he went outside leaving me in utter amazement. I took off my wedding band, placed it on his side of the dinette, and cried. He came back in and asked if I wanted to talk about “it.” Apparently “something” was upsetting me. Ya think? I didn’t know how anyone could be so disconnected from the reality of what was occurring. I felt like a complete and utter failure. Over the next week, I suggested going to counseling to understand what was happening. After no response from Bob, I made an appointment with a local psychologist. He reluctantly agreed to go, but the day before the appointment he backed out. He declared, “There was no point,” since he’d always be the person who stole my dream house. I told him he hadn’t been listening to a thing I’d said. I was crying over a relationship that was dying not a house! Our official separation began that day when he moved from our camper. I will never be able to fully express the utter sense of disbelief, hurt, and failure that consumed me.
I was a very successful hunter/jumper rider from 65-75. I still ride and am training my last foal, Follow Your Heart, now 6 years old. I graduated with highest honors from Rutgers University's College of Pharmacy in 75. I'm a third generation pharmacist and worked in my...