Six months ago, I accepted a position as a volunteer in an organization. Now I'm considering resigning because I have found that their values are not consistent with mine, nor do they follow their own written rules and regulations. Pick the rules that we want to follow and ignore the ones that are inconvenient.
Certain individuals are allowed to make arbitrary decisions that are not in the best interest of the organization but it's easier to let it go so they do. It's obvious, now that I'm on the inside, that this has been going on for a number of years. It would take a concerted effort by the people that know it's wrong to make a change and it would be unpleasant. But by not tackling this problem head on, they are losing the people that they really need, and they are unable to recruit the type of people that are needed to make a successful, vibrant organization.
My delemma is that quitting in the middle of something is also inconsistent with my values. I cannot, however, agree to circumvent rules or allow some people to do one thing and not allow everyone the same option. Ignorance is bliss. If I didn't know what I now know, I could just continue doing my particular job without worrying about anything else.
I could do what other people are doing and run my little area according to what I want and not worry about the larger organization. At least we'd be doing everything the right way. But I don't like acting unilaterally. That's the under-lying problem. It would, however, get me through the next 6 months and then I could refuse reappointment. I hate to abandon all the people in my area that have expressed their appreciation for the job I've done and how much better it's been than in the past. I took the job, in the first place, to help those people.
I'm not a fan of compartmentalizing but in this case I think it's the only way that I can satisfy my feelings of what's right. I've discussed this with someone else that has the same feelings that I do and their position is that you have to change things from the inside. While I agree in theory, the people that need to stand up and fight aren't willing to do so. The opposition is well entrenched in their feifdoms and have treaties with each other to maintain them. And they are in there recruiting new people to there way of doing it. After all, it's been done this way for years and they are still a going concern. No need to rock the boat. No need to change.
Iguess I've made my decision. Finish out my term, clearly outlining how my group will operate, stay out of everything else as much as possible and then step down.