I was off for a short-cay, a few days away from home, work and routines. We drove almost three hundred miles, stayed in a pleasant if not phenomenal hotel, bought books, attended concerts, ate out, drank and relaxed. Going up on Friday and returning Monday, we met friends for dinner and a show, meeting with them and some other friends a couple times throughout the weekend.
I wrote sparingly, walked a great deal and spent almost every hour with my wife. Sunday, as I settled down to sleep, my worries percolated up. Scheckter the Gingerbear King continues to have his stomatitis gingavitis issues causing inflamed gums that become infected and bleed. Lady has her chronic kidney failure and weak back legs. Tux the enigma is a concern because I don't know with certainly that he has a home, and he's an elderly cat.
Sinking into sleep, though, I realized...I wasn't worried about anything else. I'd cut myself off from the Internet, email and Facebook. I was away from work and home. While I have things happening in life with work, home, car and family, and I'm writing novels and short stories, my only worries emerged about my cats.
I was a bit disturbed. Housing and hunger crises, political unrest around the world, constant wars and diseases, terrorism and nuclear weapons, all sort of ongoing scandals, murders, investigations and debates about climate change, personal rights and freedoms, religion, government and greed, and the only thing worrying me were how were my cats coping in my absence.
At first, my shallowness shocked me. How could I so easily cast those matters aside? With introspection, I grasped that while I care about those other matters, all that I could truly influence, all that were really dependent upon me for resolutions to their immediate problems, were my fur buddies.
Perhaps it's simple rationalization but I gather that's my world - my cats and my wife are my life. It's either sad or beautiful.
Maybe it's both.
Causes Michael Seidel Supports
Kiva, Women's International League for Peace and Freedom, Propublica.org, Doctors Without Borders, GreaterGood.com