Worked like a machine yesterday and today, beating the drums, boom boom boom, and resolving the resolutions. Had a few interesting and intriguing moments at the start of several minutes. People killing time would chat with me about where I was. It was as though an email had been sent out, Talk to Michael about where he lives and his weather. Most of the people I spoke with were in Atlanta in Georgia, Austin in Texas, Singapore, Peru and Brazil, Rochester in Minnesota, and different cities in Virginia, Colorado and Pennsylvania. During the course of the day, it became surprising to hear how many have visited my fair adopted town or attended university in Oregon. In the day's next to last call, it was determined that more people on the call had lived in Oregon than any other one place represented.
Tomorrow is the big meeting about their newest plans for me. The meeting is at seven AM. Hints have been dropped the last two days since the cat has almost clawed its way out of the bag. It'll mean doing what I do for more brands, becoming sort of the hardware planning czar for security appliances, from what they told me of the plans, integrating and assimilating new acquisitions. Always felt that they would either turn it all over to me or turn all my tasks over to someone else. This means a new title and more responsibilities but no change in pay or band. "It's a job," they all cry with brittle joviality. Bit bemused that all expected me to be excited. I was never asked for input or advised of their plans and I'm already on a treadmill, humming along from day to day, problem to problem, challenge to challenge, country to country to geo to geo to parts to parts. I suppose I can turn it down but I don't have many potato recipes at this point. It's a tempting notion but I suspect the temptation is just a spiteful current, with a little jaded weariness also causing ripples. I'll manage my way through it.
I had a meeting with another hardware planner today, just her and me. She lives in up north on Oregon so we share the same home campus in Beaverton. She handles global responsibilities for managing the hardware and the environmental regulatory impacts. She told me how much she enjoys her job. Like me, she finds the logic problems surrounding the issues challenging and fun but there's a large tedious component of explaining things to others. "But sometimes," she said, "it's like they put my feet in cement, wrapped chains around me and threw me in a river to see how far I can swim."
Sure enough, that's how it feels...sometimes.
Causes Michael Seidel Supports
Kiva, Women's International League for Peace and Freedom, Propublica.org, Doctors Without Borders, GreaterGood.com