I was reading about video game addictions the other day. Chagrinned, I laughed as I recognized some of myself and my wife.
We both like playing word games online. I'll sometimes indulge in action games, too, and she enjoys crossword puzzles.
The author and their sources said that many people become addicted to gaming because its give them a sense of achievement. That's what made me laugh. My wife and I play on Pogo.com. We have over 62,000,000 'tokens'. That's a lot, and they have no redeeming value. But every day we play to increase our total.
It's sick, I tell you.
I wonder if there are writers addicted to the writing process and the word count, or the page count? Do they write just to pad these numbers? Are these their high scores, their tokens?
I sometimes wonder if that's what I'm doing with my novel writing. I use the word count as a taskmaster to ensure I'm pursuing my goal. And I'm proud of the numbers as they mount, but I wonder, do they matter?
Well, reading what I've written and what progress I've made, I saw that the word count and page count supported a story, and that it had direction and tension. Returning and reading it buried a number of anxieties that I would never finish, that I would forever be writing, counting the words, 100,000, 1,000,000, 10,000,000, 62,000,000.
Now I feel comforted, assuaged. All those words and pages add up to a book.
Causes Michael Seidel Supports
Kiva, Women's International League for Peace and Freedom, Propublica.org, Doctors Without Borders, GreaterGood.com