Another splendiferous writing day.
It worries me.
How long can this go on?
Should I mention that it seems like it’s going great, or will me the muse storm off in anger, refusing to return my calls?
Maybe it’s not going as well as I think. Perhaps I’m pulling a “Shining”, typing the same sentence over and over again but I don’t know it because I’m crazy.
I have noticed a difference in my approach to writing. Back in the beginning, I would think, I want to write, what can I write? Then I graduated to, I have an idea, how do I turn it into a story?
In the next evolution, there was a period when “I sternly told myself, you have a story, you must write. You want to get published, you must write.”
“Yes, sir, how many words should I write, sir?” I asked back.
“One million words,” I replied with a smirk, my pinky finger raised against the side of my mouth.
Then there was a time of awakening excitement, that I was writing, that I had finished a story, that I had sold a story, that I had written a book.
Now I accept that I write. I expect myself to write every day and I rarely fail myself. I will face blocks but they little trouble me; I know I had them before and that by relaxing and letting me be a writer, the blocks faded. I sometimes doubt what I’m writing is decent enough for publication or others’ reading entertainment but I comfort myself with having fun writing, accepting that I can’t control how others view and judge me or my writing results, so why sweat it?
For the most part, I write because that’s who I am. But I went through all of those other stages to become who I am. Having that understanding has freed me to enjoy writing. I think enjoying it encourages me to write more. If anything, the difficulty with my writing is that I have so many stories and ideas scrambling to escape my mind that if I could, I would spend the day and night just writing.
But I’ve learned, too, that such intense writing sessions aren’t necessarily the best idea for me. A little socialization keeps the muse fresher. Reading fiction, reading about writing, watching television and movies, and talking with others, helps me further evolve as a writer because these things all add dimension to me as a person, and that's what I am, beneath the writer.
I don’t want to jinx it, but it’s an exciting and fun place to be, this little place, where I write like crazy.
Causes Michael Seidel Supports
Kiva, Women's International League for Peace and Freedom, Propublica.org, Doctors Without Borders, GreaterGood.com