Sometimes my daily mantra is about coping.  Other times it's a search for deeper meaning. 

Today's meditation on my mantra took me on another quest for balance.  While on that quest, I realized that sometimes I need to accept matters.  I need to accept what must be done instead of moping over it. 

Too many times, I agonized over things that just needed to accepted and done.  I waste a lot of time and energy of all sorts going through these agonies. 

I've done that the last couple days, dealing with one of my cat's health issues, dealing with work issues, and addressing what I need to have a novel published.

There are shortcuts that can ease much of my agonizing.  I could dump the cat, ignore her condition or have her euthanized.  That's not my style, though, so none of that was entertained.

Dealing with work, I can simply blow it off.  Quit, walk away, or not work at all until they tell me I'm fired.  Again, not my style.  I work despite myself. 

For publishing, I could do the vanity press - or I could do as I have in the past and just put it off.   That is my style but putting it off hasn't done anything to satisfy me. 

So I come to understand what must be done and accept that I must do it.  I must write the synopsis and query letter, stalk agents and send them my information, and do the same with publishers. 

Yes, I know, I'm crazy, I go all over the place with this stuff, but I perceive it as a normal crazy.  We're all a little crazy, maybe a one on a scale of five.  It's a moving scale, though.  Some days, I'm crazier than other.  Our craziness tends to be specialized to specific areas and issues.

Knowing that I'm crazy and it's not unusual or abnormal is pretty useful for coping with it.  Beer, coffee, chocolate and wine help, too. In moderation.  Just like my craziness, I don't want to take any of them too far.

Meditation and writing about my angst and my thoughts helps me cope, too.  So do my wife and my cats, my friends and my family.  But bottom line, the person who will help me most is myself.

I need to accept that.