Some days, I just don't feel as good as other days. It's an amalgamation of the physical, mental and emotional factors, along with the day's situation. Poor sleep, worry and frustration, aches and pains, and sickness try to tear me down.
I judge myself to be at 90% of myself today. It's not scientific but an assessment of how I feel - energy level, thinking clarity, focus and purpose, lack of aches and pains. 90%.
I think on most days I run about 95%. You know, I feel pretty damn good, I'm pursuing an agenda with a purpose, and I have energy. When I'm below 90%, even the weather chips away at moment magnitude.
It's not static, either. I can arise and start the day at 90, begin working and drop to 70 or 80, then find something that picks me up to 100.
I don't kinow why I assess myself like this. I've done it since becoming an adult. It's typically a measurement of what I expect to be able to do compared to what I feel like I can do. 100%, I got it all going on. 0%, I'm dead. I don't think I've ever rated myself below 40%, though. As I age, it seems like most days are about 90%.
It occured to me this week that how I feel isn't a linear progression, though. Progression isn't scaled like a throttle opening or even test results. Progression of how I feel follows a logarithmic base -10 scale, like the moment magnitude scale for earthquakes. So going from 80% to 90%, I feel ten times better.
I'm not totally at the mercy of myself and the weather and world, either. While frustration and stress and other things encountered in my bubbles and on my treadmills can diminish my moment magnitude, I do things to counter ill effects. Mantras and meditations lift me up. So does taking a deep breath and building on small successes, and even compliments from friends and strangers. Helping someone else, finishing a work project or a great writing session lifts me. Coffee and chocolate are often capable of boosting me about 10 points.
Gonna go find me some now, and then write like crazy.
Causes Michael Seidel Supports
Kiva, Women's International League for Peace and Freedom, Propublica.org, Doctors Without Borders, GreaterGood.com