Its cool and windy, the smell of fall has already started to intrude on the summers rank humidity. Its a small brush of fall passing through for a day or two to remind us that she will soon be here full time.
Life has been full this summer. The sense of walking became trudging up a large hill, hard the first time but easier the second and third..No one speaks of the clarity you get about things and how you start to value yourself a lot more as you and time get aquainted to running hand in hand towards the abyss.
No one speaks of looking at things around you and wondering how and when they decided to present themselves in such a way. Today, for twenty minutes (I only know this cause my 11 year old said "your still sitting there staring up at the pinetree still?) I was captured in the thought of what is next, where do we go and how is it created.
Long ago I read a book that said, everyones heaven is there favorite places on earth. Is that true? it made me think, there are so many wonderful places I do not have a favorite. So does that mean I would be able to if I stayed the straight and narrow accrue a heaven with numerous favorite spots of mine? Does it really happen like that or is it BOOM and the out you go as a vapor whose energy is infused into someone or something else?
Have you ever meet someone who reminds you of someone else?, I have and on this day of staring at the pinetree I thought maybe those familiar people are ones that will be part of your township, county, city or whatever on the next ride, and will we remember our first encounter on the earth side before that side...very deep and wavering, tangent thoughts.
The pinetrees are being seranaded by a beautiful evening light, and the needles are lined so perfectly straight, the branch hanges over me like a protector. Its nearing time for me to understand more of earth and this life and enjoy its soil and richness, gutting sadness and unbashing joys. On my mediation ("about like 20 minutes," said the 11 year old) there was an acceptance to this and so many more things and understanding that we must at times really hold faith in the words "time shall tell."And not be afraid to hold out our hands and join time in that walk.