These days I have to look harder to find the light. Otherwise it would pass me by and the hours would most probably be dim and lack any sense of hope. But if you put dried cranberries, raisins and sultanas in a bowl and soak them overnight in strong black tea and brown sugar, then, I assure you that you will have light. You see, the fruit glistens before your very eyes, it shines in its tender marination and after that transformation, if you add a beaten egg and flour you will have a brack that shines on the table because everyone lights up as they eat it with melting yellow butter spread onto the thick slices.
If you look hard enough you will see the late evening sunshine on the back of your sons hair as you drive out from town. Look at the sky- you shout way too enthusiastically! It is apricot and whipped ice-blue swirled into a sundae that could never, realistically be made by human hand. Stop the car. No, don't, we have to get home...take the sky with us, bundle it up with a scarlet ribbon and stash it in the back seat.
Home and brown paper bags dug out to make Luminarias. A scent of New Mexico. The boys are intrigued. Fill the bags with sand and place a night light in the center and put them in the driveway. Ingenious. Instant light. See how they glow, how they beckon the lost journey man into our home. Pray that it does not rain.
Ah but the light. It comes in all ways if we observe with a keen eye. The light trickles in, a subtle reminder of what we need to be aware of in these dark days, like the diamonds that shone on the garden shed in the early morning long before the sun rose. I stood in the porch and there they were, sparkling bits of priceless diamonds, caught by the light over my head. They were alluring jewels that stole me away for moments, that is, until I saw the dogs skate over the icy path and swirl like gauche ballet dancers in raggedy discoloured tutus. They must have felt the same way as I did when I saw the sky on the drive home this evening, a little out of depth, a tad compromised, an eagerness to reach a balance.