Not everybody in this world are fond of writing, but for me, it’s one of those things I have passion for. Stream of consciousness to express what I feel deep inside and sometimes incidents that can bump your head off during your journey in uncovering realities.
I express what I feel through writing poems or essays. I am a quiet type of person and not that vocal. I know it’s bad for my health to hold unto my feelings, especially anger and hatred, so I release it through writing instead.
I used to have diaries where I really jot down what happened in my day-to-day life which really touched my heart or made my day. And it’s funny when you read it again after a year or two. You’ll feel proud of yourself for a job well done, laugh your heart out on your mistakes that you already accepted and made some solutions and sometimes getting mushy of missing those happy moments of your life. That made me realize that nothing in this world can happen again or you can’t undo the things you don’t want to be in your memory even how many detours you’ll take to get back.
I normally write poems and essays whenever I’m happy or sad, fulfilled or disappointed, in love or broken hearted, feeling complete or empty…whatever I’m feeling that I can’t fully express myself. But because I’m shy, I didn’t let other people know my habit (until this blog came along). I kept it with myself and didn’t join school journals and newsletters. I just collect published materials that I like and make them my guide and inspiration. Or is it I’m afraid of the thought that others might criticize my works? The question is am I a determined or just a frustrated writer?
It was during my second year in college that I have read our faculty’s journal and tried to submit my poems. Taking risks of being rejected but to my surprise, they published one of my works that I have submitted. I was so happy seeing my own masterpiece along with the true writers’ works. Because of that, I had the confidence to try having extra curricular activities of what I have passion to do. I joined our college’s official journal, enjoyed writing featured articles and news assigned to me plus the poems I am somewhat addicted to. I am addicted to poems because I compose even if I’m in the middle of a boring lecture or even an exam I can’t seem to find out how to answer.
Determined or frustrated writer? All I know is that I love and enjoy writing about everything I want. Who knows I might write a book or a novel someday??? (hmmm…)