It’s been seven years now since I’ve been sitting inside a classroom, of equation, formula, theories and remarkable facts, as if I’m drowned by the combustion of ideas from my classmates’ bustling minds.
I don’t love my college years because I don’t like the course I took. It was my father’s decision to pursue a degree in Chemical Engineering but I still chose to obey and put in mind that parents know what’s best for their child. I love Math since the day I’ve learned to appreciate numbers and equations. But unfortunately Chemistry is not included in my favorites’ list. Ironic isn’t it? I didn’t have the enthusiasm in me to absorb the theories my subjects offer but to my surprise with a little bit of discipline to myself, I did graduate along with my batchmates.
After 5 years of proving chemical reactions, applications of the theories derived by the most gifted minds and experiencing to pray the novena and begging for all of the saints’ help for you to pass, I started to scan the Classified Ads regularly, as if I must start to apply right away every little detail I’ve managed to absorbed from fun school days to independent university years. I even browsed the net thoroughly for online job applications. All these efforts and pressures because of what I’ve set myself to be during college years. I can still remember I said to myself that at the age of 27-28 I should already have a supervisory level gearing up to my career ladder. And by early 30’s I should already be a manager of a multinational company. A Vice-President already at my late 30’s, in time for being a CEO, Director, Consultant or even the President of my own company by 45. It’s really easier said than done. But I can’t deny I’m not one of those dying for beautiful imaginations. But now, I’m still confused with the diverged road upon my feet. I’m not sure if what I’m doing right now is what I passion to do for the years I’ll be building the foundation and structure of my educations’ worth. There are times I took two steps at a time to reach my goals but now, it seems what I’m doing are just baby steps. For what reason?-That I still have to divulge myself into thinking.
A Career Management book I’ve read said that staying in the game no matter what the obstacles or detours is a career builder and finding ways around obstacles is even better and helps you hone your strategic abilities. But sometimes it’s tiring to know you are not so sure with yourself. And there are moments in my life I regret I did not push through with the real line of education I wanted for myself.
Most of my friends are employed in famous and prestigious Consultancy, Business Solutions and Outsourcing firms that give very good pay and benefits but they have to sacrifice their health and time though for they have to work long hours and sometimes are required to stay until early morning. My other friends tried the booming business of Call Centers and some chose to work abroad for a project basis. I am the only one in the group who took the career path for a Training and Consultancy firm for Business Management Systems after a few years in the Manufacturing Industry. Now, these make me wonder am I really on the right track or I’ve missed the train I’m supposed to catch?
Trying to figure out where I am few years from now, I can’t seem to find myself where to go. I know I should decide now before it’s too late but I can’t determine all the things I must ponder on. It feels like I’m trapped within this box and have no choice but to just go with the flow. My mind tells me to wait but my heart says to go on and move now. What should I do now? Where should I start? How? If only I can have the answers with just a blink, if only I have the power to control what will happen to my life. But I guess that’s how life goes, you’ll never know what to expect until you’re crossing the bridge. That’s the beauty of living, you’ll never know what will happen next. All you need to do is to be strong and brave enough to surpass all those endeavors that will make you a better person to know what to do next.