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Blogging has been difficult for me -- it began as part of promoting my last book, presented as a necessary kind of work in today's writing world.  I am not relaxed or comfortable with it at all, and yet drawn to the ease with which it can be done.   Half joking, I said to Ivory Madison at Redroom that I wondered what a reclusive Kafka would blog. Or Emily Dickinson for that matter? Great idea! she said. "That can be our-blog-for-a-week." And so I found myself imagining a secret diary. (A blog would be simply beyond him!) The winter darkness of Prague where he lived, the claustrophic feeling of the streets, so narrow and twisted, the tall buildings would all seem to contribute to a sense of malaise. 

I imagined  papers buried beneath a stack of his books and read by a curious servant girl).  

In these cold grey days of winter, I wander through the twisting, dark streets searching for J.

I cannot make it obvious that I am seeking her out or she would toss her blonde mane with contempt, and her steel blue eyes would bore through me.  Yesterday I saw her on the corner near the clock tower. I approached, ready to bow and shake her hand, but she abruptly turned and disappeared in the crowd.  Whether or not she saw me, I do not know.

At night I hear rats scamper through the walls.  They gnaw at the half-rotted timbers of our house. Their teeth are mechanisms to devour substance, as those who are close to me  seek to devour mine.

I  fear my father, inscrutable man that he is. Perhaps he reads these scribblings...if so, he gives no sign. But these words will die with me. I have instructed Max to burn them. Worthless scraps as they are, may these words leave no trace...

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kafka

Words, images can linger far too long in cyber space.

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Maria:  What you say is eerily true.

   Especially, when we consider that Kafka, back in the paper and ink era, never thought his words would or should linger anywhere . . . .

   I'm glad that yours continue to do so because the mechanism which brings me to them is somewhat unreliable! 

Macresarf1 -- Glenn Anders -- Alex Fraser

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cyber space

do you mean the mechanism of the computer or the physical body?
I think of Kafka, Emily Dickinson, reclusive souls, and contrast it the transparent bubbles we increasingly inhabit..where chatty, extroverted, quick responses along with technical expertise are what bring power.

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cyber space

do you mean the mechanism of the computer or the physical body?
I think of Kafka, Emily Dickinson, reclusive souls, and contrast it today's milieu where chatty, extroverted, quick responses along with technical expertise seem to be survival tools.

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Computer Mechanisms, Maria:

I meant that the alert system, whatever it is, does not work for me very well when you write here or respond. I came across your original perceptive remark by accident. Thus, the incidence illustrated your observation.

Macresarf1 -- Glenn Anders -- Alex Fraser