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Memories of England
We all have mystical experiences. Some of us just don't notice them.

"I traveled among unknown men,

In lands beyond the sea,

Nor, England, did I know till then,

What love I bore to thee.

Tis past, that melancholy dream

Nor will I quit thy shore,

A second time, for still I seem,

To love thee more and more.

- William Wordsworth -

When I was a young girl I yearned for England. I missed the rolling green hills, the hedgerows, the English gardens, the heather and the vast endless skies. I wanted to see Big Ben and the Houses of Parliament one more time. I wanted to visit all the ancient cathedrals and the majestic and magical castles, Trafalgar Square, the Tower Bridge, especially at night when it glistened  like jewels as it sat proudly over the RiverThames. I dreamt of the Changing of the Guard as the cavalry marched proudly out of Buckingham Palace. In my imagination I walked through Kensington Gardens, Hyde Park, Serpentine Lake, St. James Lake and Green Park seeing all the spring flowers come to life as I wandered dreamily through all of it, my joy unsurpassed.

I had never been to England. Why I treasured a mindful of accurate memories of a place I’d never seen remains a mystery to me. I had never even seen a travel guide or a book about London. I didn’t know anyone who had been there who could have told me about it.

Then many decades later I went to England. I spent a week in London, feeling as if I were home, then took the train north to a place called Whitley Bay that overlooked North Sea where friends of mine lived. I spent a delightful week with them visiting all the local castles and museums. Every place I went was familiarity.  At one point I asked Kathleen to stop the car. As she did I ran over to a field of beautiful purple flowers and knelt in them burying the blossoms in my face.

“Heather”,I said to Kathleen as she came up to join me.

“Have you ever seen heather before?” she asked.

“No, I haven’t but I know this is heather.” I was right and its fragrance, its beauty was balm to my soul. I was home.

Kathleen and I drove up to Flodden Field, the battle site of one of the most deadly battles between the Englishmen and the Scots. Their 10,000 Scots, the flowers of Scotland, the best and the bravest, lost their lives and many were buried underneath the earth on that hill.

Slowly Kathleen and I walked up the hill. All of a sudden, the ground, previously dry, became wet and slippery, a heavy bog that made it difficult for us to move. As we drew closer to the crest of the hill we began hearing noises, at first faint then slowly growing louder. They were like nothing I had ever heard, horses screaming, men crying out loud in strange words with heavy accents. I covered my ears as my eyes scanned the hill.  All around me were thousands of men crowded so tightly that scarcely an inch of space remained.  Swords were flying, blood spurting, the painful whinnying of horses hit by weapons was chilling.  The weapons were unfamiliar to me: long staffs ending in hook-shaped blades, heavy spears with equally long shafts andhand drawn wooden bows.  They seemed cumbersome to my eyes, a tool of destruction rather than survival. 

A storm of arrows flew everywhere and  the sound of cannon fire was deafening. In the distance over the heads of thousands of soldiers, more bog and scrub woodland met my eyes. A group of soldiers were hacking one young man to death, cutting the throat of another and stripping still other dead soldiers of their armor.  Panic stricken, I looked with horror at Kathleen whose hands were over her ears as well.

"Kathleen, can you hear it?  Can you see it?"  My voice was a ragged whisper.
"I can. I never knew horses made such terrible sounds when they're injured.  And the blood.  It's everywhere." 

Kathleen ducked her head as a sword came flying and looked behind her in time to see the arm of a young man leave his body.  His facial expression of shock and pain overwhelmed Kathleen.  I grabbed ahold of her and the two of us stood in the midst of the battle of Flodden Field on its anniversary date and clung to each other. The scene went on and on.  Kathleen was sobbing now and I led her slowly back down the hill.  As we entered the parking lot the scenes disappeared and Kathleen doubled over on the ground as dry heaves assaulted her.  She sat down on a nearby curb,wiped her mouth with a tissue and took deep breaths as she tried to regain her composure. 

What had happened? Had I indeed been in England in another life? Is that why I had spent my life yearning for a place I’d never seen? I don’t know. I'll never know for sure.

Two years later I was married in Melrose Abbey in Melrose, Scotland, to another McKinnon. Tom and I had met on the Internet searching for ancestors on genealogy sites, both of us visiting the McKinnon site often. Our wedding was complete with a piper band who played our song at a five star restaurant and friends who had driven over from Glasgow. The site of George and his two sons, Christopher and Adam, and Eddie MacKinnon, another friend from the Internet, all dressed in kilts walking down the street to meet us before the ceremony was a pure delight. Tom wore a Harley shirt and a pair of jeans.  Kathleen and her husband Paul were best man and maid of honor.

As I stood in Melrose Abbey in my street length lavender dress with black lace over it and a ring of flowers on my head I looked around and sighed a deep sigh of satisfaction. I was home; I was really, really home.

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More things in heaven and earth...

A stunning account, Margie, and graphically written. It throws up all sorts of questions regarding our assumptions about Time and physical boundaries and is such a perfect story because of the outcome. (Have you novelised it?)

The theme of what I loosely call 'inherited memory' is visited in my novel, MY MOTHER BIDS ME.

As long as we are able to tune in, on a broad base, to the consensus of what is reality, these experiences of other dimensions can only enrich us.

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Hi Rosy,
Thank you for the comment. Yes, this account is part of a novel I wrote called The Stone. It is book two in a trilogy I've written but haven't been able to sell yet. I've never heard of the term inherited memory before but I have heard of something called genetic memory. The definition of that is "Events that people have lived through, the visualization and the reality of them is stored as well and then passed on through the genes sometimes not surfacing for many generations, oftentimes not for many centuries.”
I've had a lot of strange experiences, not just the Flodden Field (although that's the only one that had a witness)and combined them in a book called "Mystical Experiences: Tales of the Inner Light" which I also haven't published yet. I agree with your last paragraph. Some people are visited by these and some not. I have a spirit guide named Jake and he said the reason I receive so many is because I believe. I thought that was a food for thought comment. Take care and thanks again. Margie

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inherited memory

Margie,  Just finished your reminscences of London and the phenomenon Rosy Cole mentioned of inherited memory got me thinking about an experience from my distant past.

First I must mention my experience with not getting to Ireland. I did get to England and was excited to be there. But at the time I was what I sometimes call a boy alcoholic. Eighteen or nineteen. The Air Force had sent me to Wethersfield, Essex County. Well, both my mother and my father still had a lot of family in Ireland. It was planned that I should go to Ireland at Christmas time and the Irish relatives had gone to a great amount of effort preparing for my arrival. Skipping the details, I stood them up. Drunk in England and I'll skip those details too. So to this day I haven't seen Ireland. But years ago I started having a recurring dream of an intersection in Dublin. Late at night, all darkness except one tobacco store. A long, narrow shop, the only place lighted. It was a four-way intersection except for a narrow, even darker street cutting off on an angle and up a hill. I would walk up that street and turn left at the top into a dark residential road and there the dream would end. Frustrating. Where was I going? What would I have found there? How did I know it was Dublin? Why did the dream always end there? Rosy's reference to inherited memory is something I also never  heard of before but I wondered about it often. I don't remember dreams much now but I miss them -- even the scariest ones. I don't care how scary they are. I like remembering them. And I've had dreams that are so grizzly I wouldn't tell others about them because I'd be afraid they couldn't handle it.    ---------- Charlie

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Hi Charlie,

Doesn't that make you want to travel to Dublin to see if you can find that place? You never know where a thought can you lead you when you decide to follow it.  Take care, Margie

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Oh, yeah, years ago I used to think of that often. How I would ever find it I can't imagine. Would have to depend on luck. But just the thought of Dublin late at night is intriguing. I've roamed London at all hours and enjoyed it but more in the  memory than in the moment. At the time the realization of where I was sort of froze my consciousness or something. I was a kid. Maybe that's all there is to say about that. Youth is wasted. Period. --------- Charlie