I started a new blog a couple weeks ago and today I'm thinking about taking down my posts and starting over with it. Why? Because although I'm passionate about my writing, I'm just not that keen on the topic I picked for the blog. I'm interested in it sure, but when I wondered why I was procrastinating about writing new posts, I realised that I just didn't care enough about it.
Years ago, when I was thinking about the next direction I wanted to take, I knew (then as I know now) that my passion was for language and the sheer joy of wrestling with words. But to decide what I wanted to do with that, I asked myself the next big question - what did I care about?
The answer then was that I cared about children developing a love of language too. I wanted children to take joy in reading, listening to stories, and I wanted them to be encouraged to use their imaginations and make up their own stories. I wanted them to learn to play with words too. That's how I became a storyteller, visiting schools telling a range of traditional folk tales and not so traditional stories. I ran creative writing workshops in the schools too, teaching children that their imaginations could rule the world. It was all a great lot of fun, for the kids and me, at least. Some of the teachers were enthusiastic and participated alongside the kids. Others, sadly, chose to flip through magazines or play on the computers, or even leave the room. That disappointed me, I have to say. I was presenting them with an opportunity too.
But my main point is that it's very well to know what you enjoy doing, what gets you excited and enthusiastic, but if you don't ask yourself what you really care about, then following through with your passions is going to be a lot harder.
Thinking about the things you really care about tends to turn you outwards - what little bit can I do to help others, to make the world a better place?
Which brings me back to that blog. If I don't really care about the subject, then it's going to be hard to keep it going, to find anything to say that will get others thinking and inspired. So it's back to the drawing board, I think. I'm going to spend the next few days asking myself that question - what do I really care about? The path from there onwards will be a lot clearer, I think.
What do you really care about?