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My Writing Goals

Last night, as if for the first time, I realized I am a writer.

I have read that if you want to determine whether you are a writer or not, you should try to do something else. Anything else. I spent the greater portion of 2008 trying to convince myself that I was not a writer. I think the longest I have ever survived not writing is three months.

I am not even sure of those three months count since I always blog, write letters and write emails.

On October 8, 2009, I have decided to dedicate my life to writing. Granted, I still have bills to pay, medicine to take and one mouth to feed.  I must strike the balance of working writers life. And first I must find work!

My Writing Agenda: Past and Present

1. Poetry: Brown Paths (LeAdfoot Press, 2003)

2. Poetry: Laughing Behind Closed Doors (LeAdfoot Press, 2005)

3. Poetry: Kings, Niggers and Negroes (LeAdfoot Press, 2005) 

4. Essay Anthology: The Three Minds of Black America (collecting)

5. Screenplay: (completed) O. of O.

6. Novel: (stuck) O. of O.

7. Poetry: The Flagellant: Love Poems (started)

8. Spoken Word: Raw. Naked. Rare (abandoned, need to re-record) 

9. Essay and Poetry Anthology: The Three Minds of Women of Color (future)

10. Essays: The Last Sex and Other Essays (started) 

11. Philosophy: Crisis of Consciousness 


Before I turn 25 I would like to

1. Reprint Kings, Niggers & Negroes and sell.

2. Find Agent and/or Publisher for The Three Minds of Black America

3. Collect Essays for The Three Minds of Black America

4. Revise, Edit & Register O. of O. screenplay

5. Finish first draft of O. of O. novel

6. Perform and Slam Spoken Word again

7. Find a local producer for Raw. Naked. Rare. 

8. Publish written essays & Write more essays

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Great List.

Hi Lhea,

Its nice to see someone with so many achievements and so many goals. I wish more people in the world were motivated as you are.

I wish I had been half as motivated when I started writing. For me writing was hard, imagination was easy so I told my stories inside my head and that was sufficient. Now, I wish I had forced myself to develop my ability to express my imagination sooner.

No regrets though. I just took a long time to grow up.

I'm wondering, have you thought about why you are driven to write?

I'm fascinated by people's desire to communicate ideas. I guess its because of my own drive which for the most part was repressed throughout much of my life.

Good luck and may your writing bloom.



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Thank you

 Great question. Why am I ultimately driven to write?

After thinking about it for a little while, I have come to this conclusion. Like many African American writers I feel compelled to describe the experience of being Black in America. However, it is not because I represent the average Black. I feel compelled to write because I am an outsider in the Black community. I write also because I know I am not the only one.  


Lhea J. Love



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Mind if I keep asking

Mind if I keep asking questions?

Do you have a goal with your writing? I understand the need to share and express experience. Do you have some goals in mind while you express?

I hope I don't sound impertinent. I have answered these questions for myself and I'm curious what other writers feel.

Heh. I guess I'm asking, "whats it feel like for another writer?"


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Ultimate Goal... What does it feel like...

It's funny you ask. I have been doing deep self-mediation as of late. 

I think the suicide rates in America are going up, and they are rising in the Black community as well. I lost a brother to suicide. And honestly think that poetry has saved my life on more than one occassion. 

I don't think it's anything wrong with expressing angst, anguish, despair, hopelessness.  I think through expressing such emotions others who become acquainted with your work realize that they are not alone.

I think that is ultimately why I write, and why I perform (when I do).

When I read Toni Morrison, I realize I'm not alone. When I read Emily Dickinson, I realize I'm not alone. When I read James Baldwin, I realize I'm not alone. When I found out about Black existentialism (Black philosophers!), I realized I was not alone! 

I write to figure out what I believe about the world and it's heavens. I never really know what I believe until it comes out.

I want to write Black existentialist literature and philosophy. And, I believe in collective individualism. I think the Black community needs more individualists -- not more narcissists, but more people who can think for themselves for the benefit of the community, America at large and for the world.

It's okay to be different. You're black and you listen to rock? That's alright black people started rock and roll. You're white and you play jazz? That's alright. You're a woman that wants to be a physicist. By all means, they need you.

What does it feel like?

It feels like I'm connecting with people I can't see, but I have faith that they exist. I didn't know that you would read my blog and I've never met you in person. But I had faith that if I wrote my goals, another aspiring writer might write their goals. 

Lhea J. Love



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Meditation is very good

Wonderful goal: to reach out and connect with others, find a common ground and a common communication. That's great!

The world is so divided. Its amazing how this presidential race has polarized people. A very wise teacher of mine once said, (this is a paraphrase) "where are all the bridge builders? Why do you see so many religious leaders who seek differences and point out differences? Isn't it better to find similarities and build bridges? Isn't that what brings peace?"

I can never know what its like to be black. But I do know what its like to be brought up in one of the poorest areas of the country. I know what its like to have my heart broken. I know what its like to have loved and lost.

My point is: my life is unique. Its as unique as everyone's life. We can sit here and discuss our differences until we are blue in the face, but it serves no purpose. The best it can do is nothing and the worst is create a rift between us. Its better to discuss what we have in common, for example:

  1. A desire to write.
  2. A wish to be heard.
  3. A hope to help.
  4. A creative spark that brings us joy.

That is so much more fun to talk about, huh?

Connecting with others, showing them they are not alone. I totally get that. To realize that we ourselves are not alone, to connect with the writing of someone who feels the way we do: I get that too.

I wrote a blog entry on what it feels like when I write, but let me say that when I write anything, I go through the same process. Posting these replies to your blog has shown me that to write well, I must dig deep and I must find it within me to put myself in the place of the readers. Not just one reader, but as many as I can muster. The only way I can write words that have an impact is if I can express myself truly and faithfully and that's where digging deep comes in.

Perhaps that's what poets do. Have you ever read Rumi? He's a Muslim Sufi who wrote the most amazing prose I've ever seen. I can only read the translations and it still has that much meaning. Here's one I grabbed from the web, this is my favorite.

One went to the door of the Beloved and knocked.
A voice asked, "Who is there?"
He answered, "It is I."
The voice said, "There is no room for Me and Thee."
The door was shut.
After a year of solitude and deprivation he returned and knocked.
A voice from within asked, "Who is there?"
The man said, "It is Thee."
The door was opened for him.

Boy does he get me. And he's muslim. It shows me that wisdom is to be found in all peoples of all races and religions.

To segregate thoughts and ideas is as hateful and sinful as segregating peoples. I will be a bridge builder, not a bridge burner.

Sorry this got so long. I was inspired.


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I'll Write More Later...

I love Rumi.

I'm actually glad you mentioned him. He might be just the perfect solution for my night. Reading Rumi is like meditation, indeed.  

Lhea J. Love http://www.lheajlove.com lheajlove@gmail.com