I know it sounds silly but most of my life I have catered myself to please others. Not allowing for myself to shine as I know I truly can as a person. I have given too much of myself only to stand by and watch as others use it as a weapon against me. Not realizing I was giving them the power to turn me into the victim at every turn.
Now as I hit the tail end of 34 I realize that I deserve more in life. I have been putting my energies towards following my dreams and trying my best to be the best example I can be for my children and myself. I don't want to be in my 80's or 90's with wishes of things I could have done. I don't want to wonder if I truly have the ability to make a difference in another's life. I don't want to be burden with the saddeness in knowing that I was given chances that I allowed to pass me by. I want to hold my head high with the knowledge that regardless of the risk of failure that I did try at take the risk.Regret and self doubt won't be filling up my memories when I look back.
So this my chance. By putting it down in here there's no way I can back out. This is my beginning to my new life. This is me recording my steps as I work towards the goal of becoming a published writer, a person who truly is living life, and a person who is true to her self. I guess one can say I am doing a life make-over.
I know that if I feel there are millions of unseen eyes watching my progress then I will be more inclined to push the envelope in order to get where I want and need to be in life. So without looking down here I go taking the ultimate leap of faith in myself.