Sitting alone, dark and dismal,
lost in confusion, fear, and darkness.
Wanting to act, to reach out, but
Not knowing which words, what act.
Sadness sinks in cold and shitty,
That old enemy again circles my camp.
I don't want this, any of it, not again.
The path seemed so true, until the fall.
The silence roars, but what does it mean?
Is it good or bad, or in between.
A single word could kill or redeem,
But no word comes, silence covers me.
Not knowing, not hearing, nothing at all,
Brings all the old doubts and fears.
They come bearing their teeth, strong,
So hard to fight now with my wind knocked out...
But I love a love like no love I've ever known,
So I have no choice. I must drag myself up,
And fight on, for I want nothing else, nothing.
I only want you and our love and our future.