With three days left to go on the blog every day for the month of May challenge, I have to admit I’m looking forward to the finish line and a break. This was probably not the best month to attempt what might seem like a simple task, but it is harder than it looks. The difficulty was exasperated when the theme of the month is “play” and by my calculations the amount of “play” time I’ve had this month is close to nil. I’ve had to make gut wrenching decisions at work, maneuver a series of family commitments that would send the President’s press secretary over the edge, and fit in an eclectic assortment of medical check-ups and evaluations. So when today’s writing prompt popped up and asked me to contemplate if I still “make believe” I had to admit that I do. Yes, I do on a fairly daily basis. Here’s just a smattering of how adults like me play the “make believe” game:
· I make believe that I’m not too tired to get out the door and run in the morning, usually after only six hours of sleep. I pretend I’m an aspiring athlete long enough to get the job done.
· I make believe that my smoky eye shadow and lash lengthener mascara is enough to accent my aging eyes so the tiny wrinkles and dark circles aren’t so noticeable.
· I make believe that my best writing is done between 11:30pm and midnight, pressed against a deadline. The morning after usually tells a different story.
· I make believe that a messy desk is the sign of a busy woman and when I get a few extra minutes I avoid the need to organize, pretending I know where everything is anyway.
· When I have to make a speech, I make believe that I’m on a game show where I’m competing for the grand prize showing introverts can become extroverts with focus and fantasy.
· I make believe that I love my work, when all I want is a unprogrammed day off where I don’t have to clean, garden, cook, run errands or fold laundry.
· I make believe that I don’t hear the cat meow ten times, hoping my daughter will take the hint and fill her bowls with food and water.
And we all have shown make believe enthusiasm when what we really lack is confidence, shown tenderness when all we want is for our own pain to ebb, and put on a stoic front-facing battle when all you want to do is retreat. As you can see, make believe is an important survival skill, even in middle age.
© Kelly Tweeddale 2012