Pain is a thief. It robs you of hope. It stands in the way of progress and it demands that you pay attention. It gnaws at your confidence bringing the courageous to their knees. It doesn’t matter if it is physical pain, emotional pain or imaginary pain. Pain is a grenade that tears you apart, making it impossible to put the pieces together again. You cannot experience pain and remain the same. Pain changes you. They say whatever doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. I would like to believe that, because at this point I can’t imagine being anything other than collateral damage.
I can’t imagine spending the next 15 weeks waiting for this thief to steal the remains of the day or pick out shrapnel from my wounds. Instead, I imagine finding a theme song and building my rehabilitation and training around it. I found this song as I was preparing for my first marathon. I think it is the perfect reminder that people can get from broken to mended and from pain to possibility. I like how this song builds from a whisper to a voice of strength and how it evolves from wounded to deliberate. It sounds like me. Especially today.
What’s your anthem of strength, perseverance, and/or survival? I’m ready to incarcerate this thief and perhaps find my strength in the process. And I’m never too proud to ask for help.
© Kelly Tweeddale 2012