It's lonely not knowing if anyone will ever understand who you are.  I follow in having many sorts of character.  Some of this character is rather boring and quiet.  But a lot of it is rather weird and manic, and has no control over impulses.  Unique and obscure.  The last look is on me.  While I face the door in recognition I am either a failure, or a freak, or just done something really wrong.  Or funny.  I just began to recite my personality disorder.  My bi polar keeps me up night after night, up, not wanting to go to sleep, waking of someone new.  I am manic, on the computer, doing thing's, and such.  I don't want it to end.  I love being manic.  I tend to sleep a lot too.  I'll be up for way too long, and crash.