I have decided to be more diligent with my writing. I've become so lazy. I'm not sure what is up with me, but I know if I write I may find my way through it.
I'm feeling coupling stress-all my friends are coupled. I don't get it. I never have. I'm too stubborn an individual to be a unit. Maybe my standards are too high, though I would definitely argue that they aren't high enough on occasion. I want my personal happiness and having to deal with another person's issues is just something I'm not willing to do right now.
In my heart I know that I let the best person for me slip too easily through my fingers and I foolishly let him go-I just wish I'd figured that out before I let him go. I do have a love in my life, but he's not a dependable love. I don't feel the need to change this at the moment because I'm not a dependable love either. Then there's another love who wants me to be this person I just can't be. He wants me to be settled and I can't imagine anything more frightening. What complicates this is I'm not getting younger and my companion options dwindle with age. Plus, I'm a romantic. My problem is allowing my independent side to surrender to my romantic side (like a human Mini Wheat). Is that possible? Can two people be together and be individuals or is the unit the compromise of being loved?
Causes Kali Meister Supports
Sexual Assault Crisis Centers, Amnesty International, West Memphis 3, Doctors Without Borders, GLTB Activism