Day: December 31, 2009
Time: around 3:00 AM
Lately I've been drifting in and out. There's that feeling of disparity between dreams and reality. I remembered dreaming several times lately and somehow started to feel that I was in reality. When I went out to buy burgers, I couldn't help but admire the bright moon, the brightest so far.
This year has been the saddest year for me so far. A lot of sad things have happened. I remember I kept cursing a lot and was often bitter and started to hate a lot of people. I was hoping that somehow justice be served amidst the 'injustices' that I've experienced. I spoke to my teacher about it and well, she told me to not expect everything to be fair. "Life is not fair," she said. She has a point. Though the phrase may be considered a cliche, often we forget that life is unfair and expect things to go our way that we only end up in frustration, most of the time.
So for 2010, I will try not expecting much. Sometimes, it's the mundane things that brings great joy, awe, and happiness since we do not expect them to surprise us...like that big bright moon I saw earlier when I went out to eat my sadness away.