On Day 3 of these 32 days, I had to take my daughters to the airport to fly home after a nice (but short) visit. Even though I knew I would see them in Burbank two days later, it was still a sad morning for me. We make our situation work, but it’s far from perfect. Which got me to thinking…what IS perfect anyway?
My youngest daughter had posted something on Facebook the day before, saying “In a world of perfection, I am a symbol of misguides and fuck ups”. My first response to that was “ummm…language!”, closely followed by “NO, you are perfect in your imperfection”. I really believe that. It has taken me 50 years to understand that nothing, no one, especially myself, is perfect. There are NO perfect situations, people, jobs, relationships, eating plans or exercise programs. I think we all know this in our heads and yet, we still search for the “perfect” in everything that we do.
Here’s a little confession about my own imperfections: I like McDonald sausage burritos. I think I just heard a collective “ewwwww”. Yeah, they are made with white flour tortillas and probably powdered eggs and the sausage is a bit of a mystery too, but I LIKE THEM. And so, every now and again, I will have one (or maybe two) for breakfast. Then I go work out and eat a salad for lunch and a healthy dinner. Because that is REAL LIFE and telling myself I couldn’t have them would make me eventually eat 10 of them at a sitting. Well, maybe not 10, but you get the idea.
Here’s another confession and one that probably won’t surprise you: I like wine.
Please note this is not me...I only drink white.
On Day 3, when I got to the end of the day after kissing my daughters goodbye, after running around town in all directions to get things done, after learning how to give a shot to a diabetic dog in his bum without him biting my hand off (more on this dog and my future dog sitting stint here in Phoenix in a future blog), I crawled home to Pete and said “please don’t make me cook dinner tonight; I just want wine”. To which he very wisely replied “no problem, let’s go out”.
I had already had 2 very small glasses of wine with Pete’s sister at her house while learning how to give the doggie his shots. And at dinner, I had another. Followed by a bleu cheese wedge salad with bacon. Followed by a small steak and steamed veggies. If you are on an Atkins-type diet, it would have been the perfect meal. However, I am currently on a calories in-calories out plan and so, I went over my calorie allotment for the day.
I didn’t beat myself up though. Because I knew Day 4 would be a different day. Because I acknowledge my imperfections. Maybe I even embrace my imperfections. They are me and I love me and that is WAY more important to me than anything, because it is the self-love that makes me put one foot in front of the other every day and keep striving for a healthy, balanced, happy, grateful life.
So, I went to bed with a full tummy and a slight buzz and the final thought…”I am perfect in my imperfections”.
I woke up on Day 4 with the thought “oh crap, I need to work off that salad and wine!” Day 4 was the 4th of July, so my regular Wednesday evening Zumba wasn’t happening. That meant…say it with me…NORDICTRACK! I busted it out, turned on a new season of Biggest Loser and parked myself in front of the tv, sliding and huffing and puffing. I did it twice and now that salad is ancient history.
Pete’s sister gave me her favorite salmon recipe during our wine-fest the other night. I made it for our 4th of July dinner and was really relieved we hadn’t gone to any bbq’s. Instead, we snuggled up with our yummy salmon and an episode of Six Feet Under and listened to the celebration of America’s birthday all around us. Getting two work outs in, eating that healthy meal, being with the most wonderful man in the whole world…it felt…well…perfect!
Katie’s Killer Salmon
Whisk together the following ingredients:
2 large minced garlic cloves
2 tbsp lemon juice (or grapefruit juice works too)
2 tbsp Dijon mustard
½ - 1 tsp dried rosemary
2 tbsp soy sauce (use low-sodium if you can)
¼ cup olive oil (I think you could maybe get away with less)
Place salmon two salmon filets into a square glass baking dish; pour the marinade/sauce over the top (I turned the salmon over in the sauce and rubbed them around to sort of coat the filets); bake at 350 degrees for 30-45 mins (her recipe called for 45, but I think I pulled them out after about 35).
Works out to about 300 calories for the salmon. I added mixed veggies and a little brown rice pasta. PERFECT! Enjoy!