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Top Secret Gingerbread Cake
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Once Depak Chopra said something that truly caught my attention. Actually, I read it first, in one of his books, and then I heard him say it aloud at a lecture. He said that we should not share our truest goals and ideas about our work with those who are not intimately attached to us or those who do not do what we are doing. So if I were a computer programmer, I shouldn't wax poetic about my database language unless talking with a person writing said database language, too. Otherwise, the ignorant person might trample on the dream with said ignorance. My dream bubble about languages might pop with that person's questions and, perhaps, apathy.

Another teacher (the one of said writing trauma in my blog a couple of days ago) said, "If you were a doctor, would you walk into a party and hold up a x-ray and ask for a diagnosis from the party goers?" I suppose you could if you hung out with radiologists, but I got her point then and I get her point now. Sometimes you need a person close to you and to the kind of work you do to give you a valid response, to show you the way in or out or through.

I am about to send my novel to my dear reader Kris. This novel is about a 28 year old girl who actually ends up meeting herself. But herself is not a nice person. Actually, herself embodies many of the characteristics that my main character has never developed at all, including the fire in the belly and the force within to reach for what she wants. The two of these characters are together daily, and a great deal goes on in this story--much is about baking, as my character bakes for a living.

So as it is Sunday morning and as I feel I can share with you my work as this is a writing blog, I am providing you with my top secret gingerbread cake recipe. I know it's not winter, but this smells so delicious and wonderful that you will truly enjoy.

Old Fashioned Gingerbread

I could eat this cake with a fork and a glass of milk, from the pan, the whole thing. Stay out of my way.

>2 eggs

¾ c firmly packed brown sugar

¾ c light or dark molasses

¾ c melted butter

2 ½ c flour

2 t baking soda

½ t baking powder

2 t ground ginger

1 ½ t cinnamon

½ t ground cloves

½ t nutmeg

1 cup boiling water

Whipped cream

Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Beat eggs with sugar until light and fluffy. Add molasses and butter. Mix well. Stir together flour, baking soda, baking powder, and spices. Add to molasses mixture. Mix well. Stir in boiling water. Pour batter into a greased and floured 13 x 9 inch pan. Bake at 350 degrees for 30 minutes or until tests done. Cool. Serve with whipped cream.

Jessica

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That looks so delicious!

I actually might MAKE it today! It reminds me of an old MFK Fisher recipe I used to make from my mother's ancient copy of one of her books...

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It is so good

My mother made this one, and it may very well have come from the back of the Brer Rabbit molasses bottle.  I'm not sure, though.  What I am sure about is that it tastes great!

J

Jessica Barksdale Inclan www.jessicabarksdaleinclan.com

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Jessica,

I like the premise of meeting oneself. I often imagine walking down the street and meeting my teen to early twenties self. I'd say to her:

"Don't worry, kid, you will lose the baby fat, you'll stop chewing your fingernails and you'll never be lonely, bored or sink into depression ever again. You'll, in fact, become an ecstatic.

"But first you'll have to experience abuse, learn about the violence of man, ego and power, physical pain; you'll watch your body slowly degenerate to near death and from that point you'll build yourself back up again, cell by cell.

"Be ready for a helluva ride, girl."

P.S.--Jessica, I've kept up with your posts. I went silent after your never giving up on old friends in need, because I had to really think about that one; I recently burned the bridge on a friendship. Hey, having your posts to read is like having my personal columnist;)

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Belle, I've missed you.  I

Belle, I've missed you.  I assumed you'd been covered in Mooncakes or were out painting something fabulous.  I've a relationship myself that seems to be burning up without my intervention at all--so, what can you do but go with the flow of it all. Can't fight the universe, but you can say no to something bad.  I guess it boils down to what you define "friend" as.  And when that definition gets warped, then you need to do something.

I love this novel.  I have had such a blast writing it.  It's the first one in a while that has just come on, flowing and lovely.   Meeting yourself when you aren't sure it is yourself is a weird one!  But if I could go back to myself at different times!  Man, would I have a few things to say to me.

I hope all is well.  Make some gingerbread!  It is good for your soul.

:)

J

Jessica Barksdale Inclan www.jessicabarksdaleinclan.com

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It's the first time

I may be wrong but it's the first time in which you've talked about the specifics of your novel. You've mostly steered away from this close-to-your-heart subject.

I can understand because someone once said if you talk about a book, it's like taking the air out of your tires whenever you gauge the pressure. I'm not sure if I am paraphrasing it right. Everytime you talk about your book, you let out a little air.

I do talk about my book but there is a part of me that tries to hold back so that I don't end up with a flat tire. And have you noticed that the more people talk about wanting to write, they less they write?

There's a great short story by Thurber about this phenomenon.

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since I am about done

Maybe that's why I am talking about it a little.  The pressure is off, I feel the wholeness of it, and this is a writing environment!  So maybe that's it.  All I can tell you is that all the air is in the tire.

 You've shown us your work in progress, which has been great to see.  Maybewhen you near the end, we will get more:).

J

Jessica Barksdale Inclan www.jessicabarksdaleinclan.com

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It depends

Hopefully, if you share your story with the RIGHT people, you end up with higher pressure in your tires when you're all done.  Indeed, this is the very purpose of Red Room......"as iron sharpens iron."  Of course, you don't just want any old schmoe to take your tire pressure.   Hopefully, most of us here aren't too swine-like....ir is that "swinine?" 

I am ever grateful for my brutally honest local  writer's group, Camprobbers, which, alas, has somewhat disbanded.  They were merciless with my writing on the operating table, but at least they used a sharp scalpel.  And they didn't leave any stray organs lying on the table when it was all done. 

 One sometimes hears advice like "Don't take critiquing too personally; it's your work that's being critiqued, it's not a personal attack.  You need to learn to separate the two."

Well, fat chance.  Any book WORTH reading (or even critiquing) is going to to have a lot of you in it.  If you CAN totally excise yourself from your writing, it's a job, not a calling.  Everyone here can immediately smell a book that's the product of a job rather than a calling.  We don't need more of that; life's too dadburned short to produce it OR read it.

 The wonderful thing about critiquing as opposed to ordinary surgery, is that once you walk off the operating table, you get to pick up a scalpel of your own and return the favor.

When I finally came to the realization that if my writing sucks, I suck, two interesting things happened.  I began to suck less, and so did my writing. 

As human beings, there certainly is a lot more to us than what sloshes out of our inkwells.  But since our writing is the main portal from our being to our doing, it had better be good.

I have a chapter in my treatise "The Spirit of the Craftsman" entitled, "Surprise--you ARE what you do, after all!"

If you can't BE your job, you need a new job.

Well, enough of that epistle. :)

 

eric

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Sage advice, indeed

There is a Biblical exhortation to "not cast your pearls before swine." A lot of people miss the actual implication of this. Pigs, more than anything, are exceptionally near sighted....they have no vision...which is why they have to root in the mud with their snouts. Creative people see things that others don't. When you share profound things with "swine" (short-sighted people), you're wasting your breath...and your pearls. The fact is...the vast majority of people will never "get" you. If they did, everyone would be writing novels...or poetry...or whatever.

I talk a lot about this in my classes on creativity, as well as my essay, "Writing: the Blessed Masochism."

You ain't gonna fix it, so you just have to deal with it. :)

 

Eric

 

 

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Eric, and J--There is a Chinese saying:

Yes, there is a Chinese saying about everything under the sun . . .

"Don't play the zither for a cow."

Jessica--I can smell the gingerbread but I am lazy and I am waiting Ericka to send me a piece.

 

 

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Cows and Swine

We are getting downright barnyard.

I hope Erika sends me a piece, too.

J

Jessica Barksdale Inclan www.jessicabarksdaleinclan.com

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No WAY everybody! Make your own!

My family and I just sat down to a pre-dinner SNACK because the gingerbread smelled too good. Hot out of the oven. Fuck the whipped cream, who needs it.

Jessica, this is DELICIOUS. Even my husband, who sneers at gingerbread, was in heaven, licking every crumb from his fingers. This is the real thing, lady. And it bodes well for your book, which I'm sure is just as scrumptious.

As for me, I only let out little bits of a work in progress too... a "thesis" or "teaser." Because really, even though they're asking, "so what's your book about," they don't really want to know. They might want to read it, but hearing about it is not reading it.

Okay, back to the gingerbread!

THANK YOU for sharing.

 

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I am so happy!

Of course I'd be happier if I were eating some.  But I am glad it worked.

Maybe I will talk less about the plot and release more recipes.  Wait until you try the cinnamon rolls!

I'm glad you are licking your fingers.

Best,

J

Jessica Barksdale Inclan www.jessicabarksdaleinclan.com