It takes a certain amount of understanding to acknowledge that everyone is here to learn. To forgive, to move forward, to accept what you cannot change. To look the other way, to turn the other cheek. Perceived as weakness by some, it intrigues me. Words are funny things, written without inflection they at times can be interpreted by others in so many ways, good, bad, accusing or embracing.
Walk the walk or talk the talk? How do you define that? In this changing world, people tell others what THEY think their perception is constantly. You should do this, you should do that. Don't say this, don't say that. Justify what you said, what you did. Accusation, misunderstanding, judgement.
I spent a lot of time with Tai yesterday, working patiently with him and quietly listening in the silence, sifting understanding, growth and knowledge. In all the questions I asked him about the Universal changes and personal challenges, he would say "Apply loving thoughts and look at it differently". I was thinking about that.. Apply loving thoughts. We talk about doing that but how do you do that really?
Tai catches my attention again with a small nod. "Sometimes, your brain is very annoying" he states. I smother laughter. "I agree" I say. He surveys me gently. "One thing... stop thinking, for your brain can jump so quickly from thought to thought that you lose the focus of what you are trying to do". I roll my eyes at him. "Easier said than done".
He reaches out to me gently and touches my face. "Listen" he says. All the thoughts flow out of my head and the silence is bliss. I wait for a moment in the stillness and say "I don't hear anything". His eyebrows soar "Exactly". I again smother laughter. He surveys me again. "Understand this, sometimes when you are listening, not to what is happening in your brain, but the wonder of the world, then you can HEAR love".
That stills me completely. Hear Love? In this world, where people moan at others, condemn others in judgement. Put people on pedestals just to bring them tumbling down when they could not meet impossible expectations. You can hear Love? Tai's eyes survey me gently. "Of course".
He taps me on the head gently. "Still this, quiet your mind and let your heart search for the Love. For you, cannot and will not hear it from words or people's mouths. That is a talk, a blather, a definition of a perception of society's standard on love. Shallow at times or thrown casually at others, the value of the words has been lost. Instead if you are looking for love, then you need to open your heart and allow that to truly find what your heart needs".
I stand in the stillness of my quietened mind. As I listen around me, noises start to come to my hearing. First is laughter, echoing gently along thought patterns, delight at laughing with someone, a shared joke, similarity of connection, an undercurrent like a low hum. It fades. Next I hear the sea gently caressing the land, embracing it gently, interconnected and that same low hum. It fades. I hear the beating of a heart and the cry of a new born child and the low undercurrent hum again.
I feel like something is opening inside me, an understanding. I look at Tai and he nods. "How can I put that into words? Words that you stay at times are too many, too much, too overwhelming?" He taps me on the chest. "Speak from here then and you will have a better understanding".
So here goes. Love is everywhere, it isn't lost, it doesn't need to be searched for. You have a well of it within you. You have enough love in you to sustain a billion candles, warm the heart of a coldest winter. You just need know it. We can look at the world externally and be disappointed in it, disappointed in our experiences, disappointed in a lack of understanding in others. Or you can choose to see that each creation, each situation is simply based on that low hum of Love. Why? Because we set impossible missions for ourselves, search endlessly for fulfilment from others, acceptance, recognition that we are a good person, a loving person, doing the right thing.
Our biggest weakness is that we perceive and its only perceive.. that we don't belong and we need to find HOW to belong. It was love that brought you here, you chose this journey, its challenges and its glory. Each of those steps has been lovingly, carefully planned, nothing a coincidence, to teach you ALL the aspects of loving yourself. Where is the LOVE? It is simply you. You are the love, created wonderfully, carefully and uniquely. Start being who you are, and radiate that outwards for you simply need no approval from anyone to be that. Celebrate your life and your journey. Look at each step you take, whether hard, or easy and celebrate. For it resonates deeply with that vibration hum of Love that is warmer than words, as gently as a breeze and let your heart listen for it, hold that to you and help you to grow.