Last night I retreated "Off World" to the field of flowers, this is field I have been taken to before. All varieties of the flowers that I love in all the colours of the rainbow grow closely together in this field. In the middle of the field off to the right is a beautiful tree, large leaves in multiple shades of green. As I enter the field, the flowers part like an imaginary pathway is unfurling in front of me. A small clearing appears and I plop myself onto the ground and am immediately hidden from sight by the flowers towering over me on either side. The air energy hums with life, insect noises and living energy of the flowers. The sense of peace is incredible. I sit and soak in the bliss, I feel like I did when I was a kid, you could have a secret world and no one knew that you were there.
I lie on my back and look up at the sky, bluest blue, not a cloud in the sky. The colour that dreams are made of, an empty canvas, a palate just waiting for instruction, wide as the eye can see and filled with opportunities. I sigh, a small speck of light intrudes on my contemplation, comes in from the side and flickers around my face for a moment. I close my eyes. Go away...
"Nice, that's nice" I refuse to open my eyes, sometimes as much as I love the Guides, I cannot hide anywhere from them, part of me doesn't want to, they have been with me my whole life. In times of trouble, I lean on them so much, for reassurance, understanding and their wisdom. They do understand, probably more than I do, when I need to talk, this is usually at the time I THINK I need to be alone.
I squeak open one eye. I pop open both eyes, no one there.... I sit up and look around. I heard someone talking to me. I look around my small clearing and nothing, "Hmmm look closer", I swing around and see in the green depths of my nest, bright green cat eyes, disguised in the greenery, watching unflinchingly. "Oh har har, are you a tiger now". "What...?" comes back innocently and the eyes blink innocently at me. I roll my eyes and flop backwards.
"Can I stay here? please?" "No" I sigh, "honestly Tobias, it's nicer here at the moment. There is a lot of worried people where I am at the moment. I don't know what to tell them. I don't know how to give them the reassurance that they need at the moment". He comments "So don't, we will". I roll and look towards the eyes in the stems. Gone, but he hasn't I know. The air shimmers and shifts and the speck enlarges beside me, I wait, I know he is thinking about what I have said.
I pick at the grass, "My brother is leaving Christchurch" I comment. Warmth encompasses me in a hug. "Yes" I yank the grass. "You know, I am happy for him. If this is what he has decided to do, then good on him, and everyone else who is leaving and feels that they need to leave. Then good on them too. I think at this time people need to trust their intuition more. If they feel they will be happier moving forward and seeing these changes as opportunities, then I am really pleased. They may not have had the strength to do that before the earth started moving here. I really hope people don't focus on the negatives but see it as an opportunity". "Yes" hovers in the air by my ear.
"Tobias! yes, no answers are annoying and people who can't communicate with their guides and loved ones need reassurance!" The air shimmers as Tobias moves, old gold, rich and warm. "Then give them reassurance, ask them to ask their loved ones and Guides for the direction that they need to help them decide their pathway. You understand with what we have given you, that there is more changes to come, for those who need to change their lives and go seek new opportunities, encourage them to do this, we will help you. Help them to see that life is full of opportunities no matter how complicated and hard it seems, to trust in the knowledge that regardless of what comes to pass, life will continue. It is all in the perspective of how you look at the gift of life".
I flop on the grass, "Is that enough? Will they understand that?" "Help them to see, it's that simple". You know I kinda believe him. If you have decided that the going is getting too tough here in Christchurch, go. I believe you have made the right decision for you. If you believe you need to stay, then stay, this is exactly where you are meant to be. If you sit on the fence however, expect the fence to wobble. We all have been presented with differing opportunities, it is entirely up to us to recognise that there will be choices and opportunities. Don't look for the negative, life has way to many positives! Just step up and shine, sounds trite but every cloud does have a silver lining, sometimes the glasses just need adjustment! Above all take care of you and make sure you are okay with what you decide for you and your family! It is after all your choice....