I stand on the top of the hill looking down over the sea. I am right on the edge, the sea undulates below me like a living liquid carpet, it shines like turquoise, with mixes of darker blue green, ever changing, ever moving. The wind ruffles my hair in a light hearted gesture, reminiscent of a loved grandparent. I look out to the horizon, the clouds, the storm in the distance, ever present, but further back as the challenges in my life are not as daunting at the moment. It amuses me that when there is drama in my life, the storm comes in close in the inbetween. Funny what I bring with me into my world.
I look out to the peninsula where the seagulls swirling in the currents off the mainland, twirling like white pieces of paper lifted in a sudden gust off the pavement. They are so free, so happy, at peace in this world. I love and envy seagulls. The first movie I saw was Jonathan Livingstone Seagull. I cried my eyes out. I love that movie. I smile as I watch my seagulls whirl and twirl in the wind. The wind lifts my hair again and I close my eyes. I think I could stand here forever, in the peace and tranquillity of my world. "You can't" says a voice beside me. I smile and keep my eyes closed. "Why not?" "Because you have things to do, to complete" I open my eyes and look into cats eyes beside me. "People are hard work" The cats eyes gleam, "Yes".
I sigh, I look sideways at ole cat eyes. "Tobias? Is it really what I am meant to be doing?" (He must be so sick of this question, of my doubts). He looks out to the sea. "There is always choice" he says. "However, when we asked you to do this work, you understood that it wouldn't be easy, there would be challenges for you to stick to your faith, your trust, your love and your understanding". I nod, I understand this. I sigh again. "If only they would remember".
When we come here, we have all of our memories from our lives before, knowledge of the ages, understanding and wisdom. In some ways in order for us to learn, we have forgotten these lives so that we can undertake more learning here. Some when they get to the other side are happy with what they completed here, what they achieved, what they learnt and how they helped others to grow. Some are not. They have regret, sadness, uncompleted lessons and know that they will have to come back again for the learning and lessons.
You are a spiritual being having a human journey. Your physicality can suppress your memories, and your learning can be harder through the events and challenges that your physical mind takes on board. It can make your lessons harder here as we balk against these lessons and challenges. What I would like people to remember is that we are all on the same journey, with the same lessons, that with love and kindness towards others it can make our lessons easier. If we accept and forgive, it makes it easier on our hearts and minds. The retained disappointments are heavy, unwieldy and yet we still struggle along with them, carting them like excess baggage that you have had to pay extra for on a plane trip back from Miami. These weights take a toll on the physical, manifesting as illnesses once we have carried them for so long.
Tobias says "Help them see, help them remember, help them shine". I look at him for a long time. "Show them love" he says. I remember Armund and the Heart Flower. Everyone deserves love. No matter how painful the lessons, everyone needs love. "Is it really that simple?" "Yes". It's funny, in this world at times we see love as a weakness, something that leaves us vulnerable, exposed, needy. In truth, love gives us strength, helps us to shine who we are, and most of all gives us our power. I look out to the sea. "Everything is more simple here, makes more sense". Tobias laughs. "Show people how simple it is then". He points to the beach.
On my beach is spirit people, every where, a tonne of them. I stare in surprise. "People waiting" says Tobias "work to be done". "Where are they coming from?" Tobias laughs, "Everywhere, it's what you do remember". I turn and stare at him again. The green eyes soften and gleam, "You are doing what you are meant to do, just love them". The energy swirls around Tobias and encircles me like a sigh, its a breath of love, upliftment and joy. It surrounds me like a hug. "We will help you always" Tobias promises. I smile. "Okay" I agree. I look out to sea again. Guess I have work to do.