This morning took the time to spend time with the Guides again into investigations around hearts! There has been a reoccurring happening with people lately, I have seen little shadows on their hearts of muddy reds, I have been intrigued as to what that it. Darker shadows in greys on your heart means for me that you have experienced loss, be it of situation or of loved ones. The darker the shadow, the more intense the situation or the loss. These are our learnings in relations to life and to others.
However, with the muddy reds, I have been very curious about these. These seem to be on a lot more people lately and also, I can see these also on myself and know that they are not manifesting from an illness. Then in a group session, a lovely young man said suddenly to me, "Why do I pick up loneliness around you?" I laughed "Sometimes are you ever lonely within yourself?" He looked at me thoughtfully "Yes I am, why is that?" I turned and asked Mathias why for I knew that I too would benefit in understanding. This is the answer given.
"As you have progressed in your understanding and your spiritual awareness, you have looked outwardly to gather both knowledge and understanding. This has come from others and has resonated to a level that made sense to you. Some of the understanding has been older understanding that immediately made sense without a reason why, others has just "gelled' with your thinking. However, once you have passed this gathering knowledge stage, and even though you have met others whom are like-minded, at times you will feel lonely within yourself.
The next stage of your understanding and your own growth is the investigation into self and your own heart. This stage can be at times a lonely stage for it requires you to fully look at yourself, not through the eyes of others, but through the true eyes of acceptance of self and who you are. No one person can help you with this, this is a journey, a passage, a rite that is between you and the depths of your heart, wherein all your knowledge, past, present and future lies.
Until you have completed this understanding, at times your heart echoes with the loneliness of not truly knowing who you are. There is no basis for this feeling, it just is. Deep and soulful, it can bring a loneliness that is not placated by the presence of others, in fact, this loneliness can resonate MORE when you are around others. This is where true investigations into your heart, the depth of you are required, for you are never alone, were never alone, but you lack of understanding of yourself creates an active awareness of your own loneliness in your heart for your true self."
Hmmm, it is very interesting. As we progress further into this year 2012 and the Year of Self, it seems we will be called more and more to look not how others affect us, but how we affect ourselves with our behaviours around others. Times are changing, the vibrational energies of the planet are changing. In better understanding ourselves, then we understand more about others. For a long time we have been taught to put others ahead of us. Give to Receive, it is a Universal Law that has been around for the longest of times. However, did we adopt that so fully that we sacrificed our own selves for others. I believe so. In the Universal Scales of Balance, there is GIVE and equally RECEIVE, that's the bit we struggle with. The bit that can isolate us in ourselves. RECEIVING. However, to understand ourselves too, we need to receive to feel compensated, and also for our own health.
No one person can continually give to others, firstly, it throws the Universal Law out of balance, but worse, you isolate yourself in your own loneliness of your own expectation of yourself. Look at the balances, change what you need to.
This is all about that. It is not SELFISHNESS, it is about finding out the truth of who you are in your heart and knowing that in discovering you, you will have more to give others. So the next time you feel loneliness in your heart. Go deep within to find why, again, you owe it only to yourself to know you as much as you can for your own growth.