The last couple of days have been interesting, frustrating  and annoying.   I would really like some sleep for a start.  That would be wonderful.  Instead of people commenting on how awful I look.  However, I do know that a lot of people are not sleeping at the moment.  Maybe I should call them and chat in between 2am and 6am.   It's a nice time for a phone call, how are you doing?  What's up in your world?    In the wee small hours, I slipped off world and caught up with Tobias.

I climbed my hill, up the small track, past my beloved tree, to the top of the cliff.  Stood in the breeze, looked over the sea, mild waves, serene, calm, light wind.  Hmmm all the things I would like in my dimension thanks.  I looked out to the storm, ever rolling, crashing and lightning, off in the distance.  Good thing it is off in the distance, couldn't really deal with a storm as well right at the moment.  I stare out to sea and sigh, then kick myself, I sigh a lot lately and it's a relatively useless thing to do I've decided.

Frustratedly, I begin to tap my toes.  A light is off in the sky in the distance, like a speck, getting larger and looking like a falling star in a dark night sky.  Slightly out of place here in my blue sky, it comes closer and closer getting larger and larger. Tobias is about to land.    Tobias always reminds me of a star, twirling colour, old gold mingled with bright white light, a radiant cosmic looking being.    "Hi" I say.  "Hmmm" he says.  "What?"  I stare at him.   "If you think I am interesting, you should see the sparks coming off yourself" He says.  "Why?"   Green Cat eyes appear, "Can I talk to you about fear?" he says.

"The sparks are fear?" I ask.   He laughs "No, the sparks are frustration, and you are frustrated with your world at the moment, but frustration can quickly turn into fear and this fear can truly affect the heart chakra"  "Okay, I can understand that one" I said.   The cat eyes watch me carefully.   I look back defensively, "I am not the only one affected in my world Tobias".   "Yes, we understand this, however we want to talk to you so you can pass on what we want to share".   I glance out to sea.  "Is that a good thing?  People are so scared at the moment, I don't particularly feel like passing anything on at the moment.  It's the devil you do, the devil you don't.   Criticism for not getting it right, criticism and a lack of understanding of how horrible it can be if you do get it right and you didn't tell more people, how guilty you feel."

Tobias embraces me with light, love and understanding. "But that is fear.  Fear of being wrong, fear of loss, fear of change, fear of opening your heart in case you get hurt.    All of the fears affect your heart chakra and over a period of time can hurt your physical heart.   Please understand that other people have the fear of not knowing as much, so they look for guidance, it is entirely up to you how you deal with their fears and your own."   I again glance out to sea and Tobias catches my attention again.   "Your heart is strong enough to counter any fear, love is the strongest emotion, but you see that opening your heart makes you vulnerable when in fact the opposite is true.   People will screw up their noses, shake their heads and say "No, I need to shelter my heart from my fears, and disappointments".  When in reality it is the heart, not the head that has the strength to move forward.  At the moment people need to acknowledge their fears, but look to their hearts to see that they do indeed have the strength to move forward."

The light that surrounds me, embracing, giving and supporting, is beautiful.  I feel like am cradled in love and wisdom and understanding.   I smother a sigh, it's pointless and Tobias is right.  I cannot, we cannot continue to live in fear.   We have to get back to appreciation of our lives, knowledge that we cannot change our world it simply changes around us and we will have to move with it or get left behind.   We have the most amazing ability to adapt in this world of ours, please do not underestimate the power of your heart in this matter.   Open your hearts to living again, and no matter what, you already have the courage to feel the "fear" and have the courage to open your heart and move forward, so think not with your head, it can talk you out of anything and give you a reason for everything.  Look to your heart for your truth, your courage and your light.  Open your heart and live.