There is nothing more interesting than falling asleep to be woken up, yes I know that came out a tad sarcastic!. Well in my case, I usually get grumpy when woken up simply because it feels like I have dropped back into my body like a tonne of bricks! I asked the Guides why they wake us up and give us messages here, why not in our sleep? They have said they do this when it is really important for us to remember as most of us discard our sleeping thoughts and dreams on waking. So when it is really important, they wake us up.
It is like a jolt sometimes coming back and I seem to land into myself with a thump. I frown.. it is so quiet, what have I come back down for. I remember I was talking to Michalai and turned and next minute I am back in bed, eyes wide open in the darkened room. I quietly check my husband, he is sleeping deeply, I send out reaching tentacles of myself to the children and one of the dogs stirs on the bottom of the oldest one's bed, but the whole house sleeps.
I wait, there is a frequency change almost coming through the dimensions and something is about to land in our room, the shift of energy is like air physically shimmering as whatever it is, seems to move the density completely. The darkened room stills quieter as the light point shifts out of thin air beside the bed. I wait simply because normally this is how beings make an entrance and now I am curious as to whom it is because it does not feel like anyone I know at all.
The light brightens startlingly and fades. I look concerned for a moment, I don't think they came through. The room is no longer illuminated at all, and I am just about to check with the Guides what is happening when a face pops around the corner of the walk in wardrobe. Tousled brown hair and golden eyes survey me twinkling with laughter. "Get a surprise?" he whispers. I smother laughter "Why didn't you just come through the light?" He laughs "Wanted to see if you liked surprises or not". He steps out of the walk in wardrobe and I draw in a breath in amazement. He walks closer to the bed and leans down. "Hello there".
The golden eyes watch me closely as I try to take in all of him really. The tousled brown hair and cheeky face, other worldly golden eyes, massive golden wings, emerald and gold clothes he looks like a naughty Peter Pan with Golden wings. The frequency of him is pure delight, he makes me feel that contagious bubbling laughter just before you completely lose it laughing until your stomach aches. Belatedly my brain actually registers he is an Angel. He grins at me delightedly and the air becomes charged with mischief.
I raise an eyebrow at him and ask "And you are?" He chuckles "Emmanuel". "Ohhh a seasonal Angel then?" For the name brings thoughts of Christmas and Christmas Songs. He laughs outright and I am delighted by the feeling that his laughter brings. "No not just Christmas, I bring JOY" he says. I think for a moment and feel a tiny bit confused. "Do I need joy?" He leans in and his eyes shine with the brilliance of a starry night. He whispers theatrically "Everyone needs Joy".
The Angels fascinate me completely when they appear it is like trying to fit all of their beauty, plus the frequency of them, the essence of their love into a very small package. I think I will never get used to their amazing beauty, for there is nothing here in this world to compare them to. I think for a moment as he watches me, "What IS Joy?".
He brightens considerably in his colours, radiating out gorgeous golden light. "That's easy!" he laughs. "Joy is a combination of wonder, enjoyment, delight, amazement. Joy is the feeling of "rightness" in your life, belonging. Coming home after years of wandering. Joy is simple". I smile, "But it is also very hard to convey where people need to find joy in their lives". He laughs again and leans in closer "You don't FIND joy, you ARE Joy".
I look slightly confused, "How?". He twinkles laughter at me with golden eyes. "Perhaps, I should give you the sensation WE feel, we when come to help you down here". I look even more startled. "WE give you guys a sensation?". He laughs outright. "Yes! Do you not understand how much joy you bring us, for having the journey here. How much joy we have in being able to assist you on your journey?". "I never actually thought of it that way. I do in fleeting moments, when I look at the loved ones who help us, never leave us, and want us to be happy but I suppose I never thought of it from an Angelic point of view really".
Emmanuel laughs delightedly. "Here then, feel the Joy you bring us". He reaches and touches me gently on the tip of my nose. I draw in a breath for warmth suddenly floods my being and it is like all the moments of laughter, and delight are suddenly intensified into all of my being. The thrill of being thrown into the air by my Dad as a small child, to be caught again in strong arms and wrapped in a loving embrace, the embrace of my Nana when I returned from overseas, that moment of recognition and love returned by my partner on our wedding day, the wonder of being presented with my children in those moments after birth. All these images flow through me like the speed of light but the sensation of them is amplified, celebrated and divine, I close my eyes with the sheer delight of the sensation of Joy. A voice whispers, "all of these things condensed together, is how we feel about those of you on your life journey".
I open my eyes and look into the depths of sparkling golden ones, reflected there is pure delight at sharing that sensation with me. I cannot help but beam at him and laugh breathlessly. "I cannot maintain that feeling". He straightens up sharply "Why not?" I laugh, "Those sensations came from events, things that happened". He laughs delightedly "No, they came from living! What you must do is acknowledge that every day, every moment can bring you that joy of LIVING", he touches my nose again and the feeling floods me again. I laugh delightedly.
He winks at me, "Look for this feeling, because you can only generate it IN you. Make not the big things joyful but the small things and then you will see simply that there is JOY always within you". He winks again and in a flash of gold he is gone.
I lie there in bed and feel amazing. The images that flashed so fast are gone, but the sensation? The sensation is seeped into my bones and my being. There is SO much Joy in this life and he is right. We seek to find it in places, however it isn't really FROM something.. although we THINK it is, it is a feeling that we can generate in ourselves, but we DO forget to see that the little things, can bring us tremendous sensation of delight, of joy. We just stopped looking. He isn't a Christmas Angel, he is an Angel, that sees us for our beauty and the joy of us. I think it's about time we started to look at ourselves joyfully as well. Don't you?