I was talking to a lady last week, she had come for a reading. Spirit was showing me all the wonderful things that she does for others but showing up in her aura was a massive DON'T HURT ME, right across her heart. Also the colours around her heart showed that she was very sad a lot in herself, isolated and lonely and doing damage to her beautiful Heart Energy.
Today I was playing Michael Buble's Home, and the lyrics are "May be surrounded by a million people I, still feel all alone". I was thinking about how much we believe in ourselves that in order for us to be considered kind, loving, compassion and a generally good person, we contort our thinking around to feeling like we have to PROVE that we are good people. It is truly possible to be around others and laughing and joking and STILL feel alone in oneself. We are really incredibly cruel to ourselves in this regard.
I wandered off to the Off Worlds to talk to the Guides about it, simply because when you feel like this and lets face it a lot of us do in ourselves, we wonder WHY we feel so alone yet frustrated with ourselves for feeling this way. Also it seems to be happening, this recognition in a lot more people as they search into themselves to find what truly inspires and makes them happy with themselves.
I stand at the top of the cliff in the "In between" the moon closest to my world is illuminated slightly in the bright clear blue sky. I look at the birds soaring in the off shore breeze and close my eyes for a moment. I think things should be simpler. Hiatte whispers "Make it simple" and the air chimes with her delighted laughter as it wraps around me on the breeze. I open my eyes and am aware that I am not on the cliff top, I am in this gorgeous light chamber, colours pulsating all around me. I know where I am, but I cannot think how to explain it other than the Harmonising Chamber, the colours are brilliant like being inside a prism, but at the same time a part of it as well.
The frequency of the colours is like a balm to my fractured thoughts, I love this place. I have been coming here with the Guides for years, each colour has it own vibration and healing energy. Each person, each soul, each level of their learning, has a combination of colours to help clear unhealthy thoughts of self that manifest into the physical, either from experiences or from trauma etc, but can be cleared through harmonising energies. If you wonder at times where you go to at night when you feel exhausted and then you wake up feeling a million bucks, then 9 times out of 10 you would have been to the Harmonising Chambers. (Honestly, I have the worst image of sending people through a kind of Celestial Car wash!)
Hiatte appears beside me, a melody, a symphony of colours, she moves like a flowing rich tapestry of colours. I smile "Thank you for bringing me here". She touches me gently "You are so hard on yourself and your poor heart". I look startled "Me? I was thinking about that lovely lady on Friday". Hiatte laughs "Why do you think her loneliness in self resonated so much with you? As soon as you meet someone who you FEEL for, understand that it simply is there is a connective link of empathy between you and that is why you can sympathise so well within your own understanding". I blink. Heck I didn't think of it that way before.
I do get lonely in self, isolated in self, but I always think that it is my own expectation, my own doing, my own memories and longing for another time and place at a very deep level. Hiatte smiles gently, "Then no different from most other people, yet they do NOT remember to the same extent you do, but they just have this deep feeling of loss, or longing in self". I nod. I do understand what she means. She moves closer and reaches out and touches my heart. I look down and look extremely startled, for it seems almost as if she has reached into my chest and it has opened like a Pandora's box of light. There are shadows, darknesses and an odd colour combination that makes me frown. If I had seen that combination on anyone else's light essence in their chest I would be concerned for the health of their heart, BUT it's MY Heart!
The Essence, the Spark within lies not in people's minds, but within the heart of them. I am continually intrigued, awed and amazed at the beauty and colours inside people. In being able to look past the shell of the physical, the energy condensed into matter, I get to see the pure energy inside of people. It is a truly beautiful thing, but rarely do I EVER look at me. I wrinkle my nose at the shadows, darkness and especially the colour combination, YUCK!
Our expectations and perceptions of ourselves take a terrible toll on our heart energy, we store all our disappointments, hurts, shame, regrets on our hearts. All the horrid stuff we cruelly inflict upon ourselves and blame ourselves for. I look down and sigh. No wonder Hiatte brought me here and by the looks of it I could be here for a century! Hiatte smothers laughter at that thought and tugs on me gently. She moves to a wall, if you can call it a wall and raises a hand slightly, immediately on the wall of colours, about 20 different colours are illuminated, shift from the wall and centre almost together like a moving ball of multiple lights. The hum off them is melodic, chiming and I can feel a pull inside my heart, like a joyful anticipation, a feeling of coming home and rejoicing. The colours shift from the front of the wall, and feel like they pass through me, into my heart, through me, around me, I feel for a moment that I have been made aware that I am a part of EVERYTHING, and everything is a part of me. A collective consciousness of understanding, but within that a feeling of being embraced lovingly, hugely and blissfully.
I close my eyes for a moment and there is a perceptive feeling of expanding, lightening, lifting and for a moment, almost like a very high range chime of frequency that passes both through me and in me. I open my eyes and the Pandora's box of light on the front of me is gone. I feel lighter and happier in self, than I have for ages. Hiatte stands quietly, lovingly in front of me. "Beach" she says and instantly I am on the beach with her in the "In between", I curl my feet in the sand for a moment. "It doesn't feel real at times, coming back like this from a place that I love so much, it doesn't seem fair, that I get to go and remember and then have to come back into the heavy body in the physical". (I hate that I feel whiny, ungrateful after such an amazing experience, and one that I take for granted at times for I have been to the Harmonising Chambers a lot with others lately).
Hiatte reaches out and touches my face gently. "Don't be cruel to your Heart. Do not feel that you SHOULD not be here, celebrate that you are here. That you get to remember and show others the worlds and experiences you have and in telling them, and showing them through your eyes, they get to acknowledge the memories they too have just below the surface of their minds, for many will resonate with the telling". I immediately feel so ungrateful and Hiatte surrounds me immediately in loving energy.
"Tell them not to be so cruel to their Hearts, simply allow emotions to be felt. All are to be experienced, that is all. But to hold onto hurts, either real or perceived, does incredible damage to your heart energy and also can make you feel terribly alone in your suffering of self. Allow people to see your "realness", your love, and your fears, simply because in allowing people to share your feelings, they too can acknowledge what they have in their hearts as well".
You know, she is so right. We are dreadfully cruel at times to ourselves, our heart energy. We direct terrible thoughts of blame to ourselves, justify being mean and generally shredding and picking at our beautiful Heart Essence and energy. It's gorgeous, so are you! Please be kinder to yourself in your thoughts and when you do get stuck understand this. You are never alone, Spirit, Guides, Loved ones stand by your side always. Your Heart Essence is the living spark from the Creator who loves you deeply, so please lighten up on your Heart Energy and know that you are truly loved so start to love you more for yourself! You need it just as much as everyone else!