Hmmm I am in the "In Between" with Tai. He is curled into his normal lotus position in the immaculate Zen Garden (which for some reason always makes me feel like I should be whispering o.O). He gestures for me to be seated and I sink down very ungracefully because I am annoyed and I am really wanting to pick a fight with him really. I have been working in the Off Worlds at night-time where things seem so SIMPLE, so defined by LOVE and COMPASSION and HUMILITY, to come back to the Earth plane to watch people criticising each other, judging each other and generally just being intolerant and rude. I'm GRUMPY!
Tai waits patiently, quietly and surveys me carefully. I feel like I'm a big circulating lump of GRUMP, so to make me feel better, I glare at him. He raises one eyebrow so delicately, it is like the slight adjustment of a bird's wing in flight so it can curve off in another direction. "I want to talk about Judgement" I state. He surveys me again, still with that delicately arched brow. He says quietly "No, you want to talk about perception". I think for a moment and growl "Judgement". "Perception". I sigh. This could be a very, very painful conversation if I cannot stop being a GRUMP. I make a conscious effort to get my annoyance under control and can feel my own energy fluctuations calm down. The eyebrow lowers into its normal position and dark eyes gleam at me like liquid light.
He nods just once and surveys me again. "Do you not understand that in your frustration at YOUR own perception of their behaviours, that YOU in fact are judging them". I look extremely startled and snap back "I am NOT. I am not the one being judgemental and intolerant of others ideas, dreams, beliefs or anything". The brow arches again and he simply says "Really?"
I have to remember THIS, any one person that comes across your path, has the ability to teach you something about yourself. I have forgotten this in my grumpy and now I am being gently reminded of this by one of my beloved Guides. Well, STINK! Don't you just hate it when they bring it back to you. I glare at him again and his eyes light up and a slight smile hides at the corners of his mouth as he follows my thought processes back to me. I look sideways and then back to him. He laughs out loud before he decides to take pity on me.
Quietly he talks "Judgement is not judgement, it is merely a perception of a person or a being of what resonates with them. Once they have their "truth" they will hold to this. Understand that each person needs something to believe in, and this is not a bad thing. In vibration frequency of their understanding. Be it whether they perceive there is a God, a Buddha, a Source, a Galactic Federation of Light, Spirit Realm, they are allowed to have this belief, their "truth". Understand this also, that sometimes in the needing to have this "truth" in order for them to accept it fully, they MUST have others with them who believe this as well". I nod impatiently "I GET THAT! What's annoying me is every man and his dog at the moment judging someone else for what they do or believe in. Surely there is no right or wrong just what we choose to embrace?" "Perception" he states and I roll my eyes at him.
"Imagine you are looking at a beautiful scene, so truly beautiful that you cannot look at everything at once, so your eyes are drawn to one aspect of this amazing scene and you hold that in your heart. Now you are joined by thirty other people and they too are drawn to this amazing scene, but cannot, cannot take ALL of it in at once, so they too choose one aspect of this amazing scene and they each individually hold this in their heart. None will know what the other has chosen to hold onto, for each mind will choose what resonates from that beautiful scene with their hearts, their thoughts and their dreams. How could anything that they chose out of that beautiful, amazing scene be the wrong thing? Its simply no, there is no wrong".
I sigh, "I GET that, you are not answering the question". The eyebrow soars again. "I have not finished" he quietly states and I immediately feel mortified for my impatience AGAIN. I am an extremely SLOW learner I have decided.
"Imagine in your heart and your mind with the beauty of this aspect, you suddenly wish to share it with the world. You cannot really describe what you have claimed as your vision but you know in your heart and deep within you that it is something truly amazing. As time passes you decide that you really want everyone to see this aspect, however with time it has changed, it has become truly your PERCEPTION of what you retained from that scene. So you try and try to get people to see it from your angle, completely forgetting that others from either where they were standing, or their own values, owns their "truth" differently". I nod, I'm not even going to interrupt him at ALL.
"Imagine too then" he quietly adds "Their frustration, of not being able to convey or show others what they truly believe to be shared but only at a level they understand and resonate with. They so want others to believe in their "truth" they feel forced to peck like chickens after elusive grains at others beliefs. They will peck and peck, simply because they want others to share in the "truth" that they have owned". "That's wrong, it's wrong to do that!" I can feel myself getting annoyed all over again.
He raises one finger, "I have not finished". Honestly, I could slap myself here and now.
"When this is happening, you need to Thank them" MY eyebrows soar and I go "WHAT? You mean to say when someone is judging, attacking or putting down another person, you need to THANK them? How the heck does that work?" He smiles widely at my indignation and produces a small Mirror from his pocket and hands it to me. I look down into the mirror and only see light, not my reflection but beautiful, golden, curling energy light. I look startled. "How many times regardless of what people have said to you, how they have treated you, have you held onto your own light, simply because they have challenged you to do so? Understand at this time of great change, people are struggling to hold onto their own light. It is simply easier to pick at others. When you are true to your own light, understanding and it resonates in your heart. There is NO NEED to prove it to another, for you recognise all are in different stages of learning and you all simply need to shine. The ones that judge, criticise, they are merely going through their own learning, their OWN judgement of themselves, love them and THANK them for undertaking that journey at this stage".
I sit stunned. There is a multitude of waves of understanding around this at so many levels. It's about you, it's about me, it's about them. We are all so interwoven in learning and understanding, yet our insecurities (which are our own) hold us at times to judging others, when in fact ALL we are doing is judging ourselves THROUGH others. Tai smiles as he watches my thoughts chase each other arguing across the landscape of my mind.
He reaches forward and touches my nose lightly. "Make it simple, for it always is. Simple Wisdom". He laughs and disappears and I am alone in the Zen Garden. I feel at times I know nothing, a tiny grain of understanding. Most of it is simple, completely and utterly and it is what Tai has come to teach. Respect others points of view, for they are learning too. If you want to even subtly judge another, then make sure you are aware YOU will have to also judge YOU. I don't know how many of us are prepared for that.. but hey it's a learning realm but boy we need to think about that before we let our mouths step up to bring that learning straight back to US!