You know what? I'm really tired of the energy on the earth plane at the moment. I feel like it's frazzling a lot of people out there too. I'm an energy shifter so I spend a lot of time working with light energy to help people feel better as well. In my usual annoyance, I grumped off to the "In between".
I walk up the hill and straight into a massive thunder-storm, the wind whips around me like a jouster with poking stabs of wind that pull at my clothes and my hair. The clouds descend heavily, like grumpy old men at a bowling green watching the jack being hit by an errant ball. The air hums with static electricity and lightning shoots across the sky in sparking bursts of theatrical angry displays. It pretty well sums up how I feel in my world at the moment. The storm only ever comes in when I feel like my world is driving me nuts. I do notice that it's always off to the distance which means things can change relatively quickly in our world as well.
Tobias looms like a sun in a darkening world and the wind sweeps around the both of us. I glare at him. "You know what? I'm over feeling like I'm waiting for the earth plane to throw another wobbly in some form or the other! I'm tired of hearing the ground move violently at its core and waiting for the surfacing movement to hit somewhere in the world!". He waits patiently until I run out of steam and stand in the whipping wind, feeling just as cross as the storm.
The wind seems to strengthen with my own annoyances. Tobias, ever-present, ever patient, waits. I cross my arms and tap a foot. Stalemate, as each chess man eyeballs the other, (well in Tobias's case, cat eyes) waiting for the next move. Mildly, politely, he says "Could you tone down the wind?" I stare at him "What?" "It's your world" he patiently states. Honestly, I don't know whether to slap him or push him off the cliff. I completely get distracted wondering how to push energy off a cliff anyway. The wind dies down instantly. The storm pulses around us with static but the wind is gone.
"Come talk" he says. "About?" I ask sharply. "Courage" he leans in and offers it like a peace-offering. "Pffft" I go, with rudeness. I often wonder why the Guides put up with me. Here, sign up here, difficult, challenging soul on the earth plane, some one please put your hand up. Oh, you weren't quite paying attention, here have this one, she is extremely difficult.
Tobias shines in the darkening sky, "Courage, it's an indefinable thing. You will never know how much you need, how much you have inside you until you are in a position to be challenged. Until it is called on, courage hangs by a thread. Ever present, could be larger than life, smaller than a pebble, underestimated by the timid and ignored by the arrogant". I listen suspiciously. He sighs. "Courage enables you to be all you can be, courage means you will be tested to see how much you can deal with in this life time. It takes courage to take your life with all of its challenges and hold onto what you believe. Courage to understand that you came here at this time to experience these events, these changes happening in your world. It takes courage to love unconditionally, grieve passionately, and change with the challenges of the world".
I still have my arms crossed. "You lot are testing my patience". He sparks brightly, "You have the heart of a Lion, the strength of an Elephant in spirit and the courage of 10,000 men. We know it is taking an enormous amount of courage to hold to what we give you, to hold to what you believe and to trust. At this time, we are by your side, what we would like you to do is to have the courage to believe in truth. To hold your own and to encourage others to be courageous in their belief in themselves and their futures. It's an indefinable thing, help them to see all they can be and their inner strengths."
I stare out to sea and mumble, "I'm not courageous, I'm not a Lion, or an Elephant and 10,000 men? Nope, you have to wrong person. I don't feel strong or courageous at all, and if I look for my courage I think it packed a bag and left for Niagara Falls!". Tobias moves closer, "You do have courage, everyone does. You all will just not know how much until you are challenged to find your courage, all through your life, there will be challenges. All will have challenges. Hold on to that fact that courage is there always and there will be a way through at the end."
You know I'm still annoyed, like everyone else I'm over challenges. I do believe that he is right though, Courage is hard to find at times, and always we never realise how much we have until challenged. The courage to move forward when we lose the people that we love and we feel like the world will never be the same. The courage to change jobs when we feel like we will be stuck in this one forever. To leave relationships of a life time to start a new life. Always courage, always indefinable in its quantity until we are tested but within everyone. When you are challenged and life seems to be going pear-shaped on you, please hold onto to the fact that we are given enough courage to experience all that we will here on the earth plane. Hold it in your heart like a gemstone, for courage is amazing, resilient and hidden. Know it will be there when you least expect but when you need it the most.