You know I was lucky enough yesterday to sneak away from the painting and just sit quietly in the garden. The pansies are out in their yellow, red and blue faces, cheery as always and I was reminded of my Nana. I adored my Nana, she was such a patient person, she would listen carefully to any woes and think for a moment and then give advice that she had from experiences. She would always show me the pansies faces and say "Look they just look cheerily to the sun, they don't expect much, some sun, some rain and some lovely soil. We really should be more like pansies!". I would always laugh, for simply, yes. We should not over burden ourselves with our erratic thoughts, stresses and the demands that we put on ourselves.
As I sat in the sun with my cup of tea and admired the pansies faces, a small lady appeared in a blue dress and a cream cardigan. She was tiny and fragile like a small bird, bright blue eyes and immaculate white hair, she was all of 5 foot tall. I smiled at her, and she smiled at me. "I can't offer you a cup of tea when you are in that form, but I would love you to stay and chat". I was expecting Nana to turn up to chat, but hey this was obviously some ones Nana so I could chat to her as well.
She came and sat beside me in the sun, sweeping her dress to the side, she perched on the patio step. I closed my eyes for a moment and the smell of Jasmine touched my senses, I turn and crack open an eye at her. "I don't grow any Jasmine". "Perhaps you should" she winks and I laugh. I look at her over my cup of tea and she looks straight back at me.
"Can I ask you a question?" "Certainly" she replied. "Why do you come back to talk to me in human form?, why don't you like just coming in as light?" "Well, you pay more attention to us when we come in form, you notice us more, simply because you are used to seeing people as people". I think for a moment, I suppose that's true. I see light flashes all the time and just know its beings or spirit but until they are in my face I don't pay as much attention as when they are in human form.
I tilt my head and look at her. "Do you miss being in a body?" She laughs and I look mortified. "Oopsy I suppose I shouldn't be asking you that, it's kinda rude". She laughs more, a tinkling laugh of genuine enjoyment. She leans towards me "I don't mind at all". "Do I miss being in a body" She looks at the pansies and considers it. "Yes, simply because in a body, you can feel things more, you can hug people, you can experience so many things, hearing, tasting, seeing. The one thing I don't miss is how HEAVY it was". "Oh, was that cause you were older?" She laughs again. "Heavens no, I don't think you realise how heavy it is here until you leave". She looks at me, "but you know that don't you?" My turn to laugh. "Some nights I cant wait to get out of the body and just stretch! but I have to come back!". We both laugh.
"Would you do anything differently?" I laugh, "Gosh I'm giving you 20 questions!" She smiles "Yes, I would. I would not get so emotional over the small things, I would see that everything is as it should be and everything is just experiences. I look back on some of the choices I made and I would love people more, forgive them more, simply because everyone is here learning too and its like copying someone else's homework really, it doesn't work. You simply should listen to your heart more, not your head. I thought too much when I are here and missed the bigger picture. Life is to be experienced, yet I got so caught up in silly things".
"Don't you think that's just what happens when we come into a human body? In forgetting the memories of whom we are, we get to re-experience everything again? The hard way in some cases?". She laughs. "Well it can SEEM like the hard way but everything is just an experience, a learning. It still pays to enjoy the life tremendously, simply because time passes so quickly, I would have enjoyed it more, not frittered parts of it".
I look again at the pansies and Nana's saying comes back to mind again. "We should make it simpler then?" She laughs, she is a lovely little old lady. "Yes simply".
"Would you come back? Because I know everyone has the choice in that as well, for more learning?" She smiles and leans in conspiratorially "Yes, I would, because it is so worth the experiences!". We sit in the sun for a while and I think. "On the other side though there is more love, more acceptance, less difficulty, you can think and be somewhere, you can communicate at multiple levels easily. I don't know if I would come back".
She laughs! "Yes you would, because you came to help people see how beautiful they are, how much they can be and reconnect them with their people who have passed, you came to do these things. Trust me you would come back again. For this is one place where the learning is so worthwhile for your evolution of being, your advancement, it is truly worth it".
"Is Spirit World like I have seen it, like Grand Central Station with people coming and going, departing, coming to be born?" She laughs, "Very much so, it is beautifully orchestrated and organised, such excitement at both the being born and the completion of a life well experienced!" "So there is no failures?" "No, that is a human perception, it is really about your experiences".
I suddenly realise I haven't even asked her name or anything. Peals of laughter erupt from her tiny frame and her eyes twinkle in delight. "It's Helen" she says. The name echoes through my mind and I try to grasp vaguely why that name is important, everything about this lady is familiar. She smiles, "Doesn't really matter, I just came to chat". "Well, thank you! for chatting". She laughs and I look to the pansies. The smell of Jasmine wafts again over me and I smile. I turn to talk to her and she is gone.
You know WE DO get caught up in our thoughts, our minds, our fears and our worries. What does it take to make life simpler and more enjoyable? US, simply.. We are at the centre of our worlds and yet, the random NOISE coming off people's thoughts are HUGE. We have a phenomenal amount of trivial thoughts cluttering our minds and preoccupying us. I know I am going to make a conscious effort to de-clutter my brain and enjoy things more, not get caught up in the silly stuff that I cannot change anyway. Have a look at your life, is it complex or simple, enjoyable or cluttered? No one person can change that but you... Enjoy more! Stress less! Simple really.